December 31, 2009

Today is the last day for this year, 2009. I felt so sad want to leave this year actually because there are many amazing things happen to me this year. But, there's also sad moments that also happened to me. Ya, this year seems like a roller coaster emotion for me. Also, this blog will be the last post for 2009 because about in half day, we are going to celebrate 2010. With the coming of 2010, it means that I'm growing up and I am 21 years old. Not happy actually with the number because 21 seems old enough and I have to change my characters to be more mature, not childish. Anyway, let's hope the best thing will happen for the next coming of 2010. I'm writing this blog because I just want you guys and gals to know what are the amazing things that has happened to me this year recently and I also want to encourage you to do the same thing for your blog.

Ya, I have to admit that December is so amazing month of this year because first, Sime Darby and second, Educamp in UTP. You know, although the sime darby interview is the hardest part ever in my life, I still have to think positive about it and take it as a great experience for me to gain more confident and being more friendly to anyone. Sime darby interview also taught me a lot to be more independent, just say what you believe and no more shyness. It also pushed me to the limit so that I can reach the boundaries that has separated me from achieving my dream. And I'm so graceful for that awesome sime darby interview although I don't think I will shortlisted for the last stage. Never mind because the most important thing is I enjoyed that moment. Next, also taught me a lot is educamp in UTP. I have told you about this educamp in my latest blog ( only if you care to read it ). I just found out that Educamp is freaking aweosme because I learn a lot from there although it was hard for me for the first time because I have to take bus from Shah Alam to Ipoh by myself, ask people for direction and sleep at the Bus Station. Ya, it's a bit scary and actually, that was not me who used to be like someone that will asked for direction, take bus to Ipoh by my own because usually I need someone to company to go to UTP. But, luckily, I did it my myself and it's good enough to show that I'm starting to be more independent. Educamp is awesome because we have quizzes about math and science, interview like MUET exam, meet new friends and guess what? I think it was only me that from sabah. But, it's okay because I learn to adapt new environment and new friends.

Another thing is about my MUET. It's just okay since I've got Band 3 for that exam and it was amazing for me because after working hard for almost 1 month, I think so, finally, I don't have to re-sit MUET exam again although I have low mark for listening and speaking sections. Never mind because I am weak on this sections. Anyway, thanks god for making me pass this exam although I have to learn all by myself and luckily, I have improved my english. Thanks god.

Also, we get new member in ourfamily. His name is Mohd. dhiyaulhaq and damn, he is so cute! Love him so much and just now, I missed him a lot because I think it has been one month I didn't kiss or talk to him. Maybe at this moment he's know how to crawl and I hope I can meet him before he started to learn walk. Anyway, just want to say welcome to our family, Ulhaq.

However, what I want to make this year, I want to study seem like only a daydream because this year 2009, I still not pecede my study yet and it was so sad because I can't achieve my dream to pursue my study in University. So sad. Anyway, I can't stop from hoping because I know there will be a light at the end of the road and what I have to do is just hoping and do my best. You can do it, Rosly..

That's all for 2009 and I'm welcoming 2010 and I hope this year, everything will be right just for me and Happy New Year my friends..

Educamp in UTP (20-21 december 2009)

I'm gonna tell you the story of my experience when I'm traveling to Perak by myself. It's quite scary experience because I have to do all the things by myself. Form that, I learn to be independent. So, I took bus to Medan Gopeng Station Bus which is located in Ipoh, Perak. So, I arrived at there about 2.00am and the bus sent me to the bus stop not the bus station. What the heck. So, while I'm still blur and just woke up, I just sat at the bus stop and don't know what should I do. I'm afraid because it's already 2.00am and fortunately, there are still few people around the bus stop. I took decision to stay in a hotel which I saw just across the road and in front me but unfortunately, it's full. So, with my heavy bags, I went back to the bus stop and sit for about 15 minutes because I don't know what I should I do. I don't have any idea where I am and where I will sleep for that night. I told myself that I should ask anyone to show me the direction to the Medan Gopeng Station Bus because i'm sure I can sleep at there. But, due to my shyness I'm afraid and shy to ask for direction. After thinking for a while, I told myself till when do I have to let my shyness stop me from asking? So, with taking brave step, I asked a woman and has baby on her arm toa sk for that staion bus. Luckily, she know that place and she told me that I should just go straight that way and I will find it. Thanks to that woman for showing me the direction. So, I pick my bags and go to the bus statioan and manage to find the place. After I arrived at there and found out that I felt safe because people are still awake. I try to find surau but when I managed to find it, it's closed. After that, I go to the chairs at the place nd trying to sleep. But, I just really sleep only 2 hours for that whole night because my back and neck are hurt. Damn!

In the morning, I met a friend and guess what? I'm the first one who started the talking because it was not me that always start talking with people. I would rather to keep quiet all the time and let people ask me. The bus arrived in 7.00am and it's still dark, It it were in Tawau, it's already bright day. Then, the bus brought us to Tronoh where UTP is located. I think the journey took about 30 minutes. I take a nap in the bus because I'm so sleepy. First impression of UTP; quite beautiful, nice and I want to study here. I think we're late because there are many people already at there. We're registered and I met my roomate, Ahmad Firdaus who is SPM leaver. Then, we started introduced ourself and we became so closed because the similarty between me and him,we don't know anyone from the educamp. I'm so lucky to know him. After we found our room, we have to go to the main hall where we have to take bus to go to that place. Again, the main hall is awesome with library at his side. The library is so awesome but we didn't enter it yet. Damn it. After we enter the the main hall, the place in super duper awesome and I think it's quite big and I don't know how much people can be put in the main hall. It's just awesome. F**k. Hence, we're giving about the brief or Petronas and UTP. There are also 1400 aplliant but only 700 persons luckily to join this educamp. But, only 571 only manage to came at all which only 500 students only will be sorted into UTP and I am hoping that I am the one of the 500 luckiest person to enter this amazing UTP.

After finished with the boring briefing, we took lunch and the faci told us that we have two tests for this evening. I was shocked because it was too early. Then, we're go back to the out room and rest for this evening test. So, we are waiting outside the exam hall and this waiting just remind me of my KML moment. It's just like us, matriculation students waiting outside the hall for taking the exam and I just realize that I missed matric life so much. After longer waiting, we took our first paper. It was English Placement Test. It's quite easy because just objective questions and we have to answer 50 questions in 1 hour only. But, I finished it earlier and feel sleepy during the test because english is suck. Then, we took a break for 15 minutes and sat for the next test and it was mathemathic and science test. Damn!! The test is combination between chemistry, physics and additional math questions for SPM. S**t! I already forget what I learn three years ago but fortunately, I still remember what I learn in matric. Thank god for that. But, I don't know if I still answer them correct. But guess what? it's about the time and we have 40 questions and again, one hour only. But I think I do well on this test. After the test, we go back to our room and sleep.

In the night, we have talk which I found the most boring moment in this educamp. But I just found out that almost 65% of the participants of this educamp want chemical engineering. Wow, it was really shock me and I already know that because many people more tend to take chemical engineering. I choose Petroleum engineering because this is what I want. I want to work with oila nd gas company and I know UTP can achieve my dream. From my observation, only 10% student want to take petroleum engineering. After the talk, we went outside and take alook of the list because we have interview sesion for tomorrow and I was in the last group E-10-2. After that, we go back to our room and sleep.

In the next morning, I wake up and felt so nervous because today is the day where we have interview. It will be handle like MUET test and luckily, I have experience on this stuff, Our session only will start in 2.00pm and we have a lot time to prepare. Fortunately, my roomate and me got the same group E but he was in different group. We have individual and group discussion for that ibnterview. Our topic for that day is Aid. It's so hard and I hardly understand the topic. But, I just focus and started to write my points. For my individual presentation, I've the aid shouldn't need a formal request and what should government do? So, when I'm walking to the room,Ifelt so nervous and luckily my interviewers, they are so nice. First, they asked me why I choose UTP and what course did I want to attend. After that, I started to explain my points and the woman asked me questions and I was very happy because i can hear what she said tome and I can answer it. Again, thanks God. But, I think I'm doing it bad during the group discussion but what I know just said what I think is correct. Fuh, I felt relievd after the interview and I am packing my bag again to go to Putrajaya and I follow my friend to go back to Shah Alam. I arrived here about 12.00am and it was very tired day.

Hmm.. I think it is the longest blog i wrote and I felt satisfied with the educamp and I am hoping that I will sorted into UTP. I really want this so badly because I need to study this year and I have to forget about study and start thinking for another option, working. Anyway, all the best from me and let's just hoping for the best! Good luck, Rosly!!

Educamp at UTP

Ya!! I'm going to attend Educamp held by Universiti Teknologi Petronas this 20 and 21 December 2009. I am very excited about this because I really want to pay a visit to there. Again, it sound fascinating and I hope so. But, what I just afraid is I'm going to Tronoh, maybe by myself and I never went to Perak. So, there will be two days camp and from my research, it's not camping actually because camping usually related to tent, sleep outside and etc. We're going to attend the seminar, answer the tests that given and attend interview. We have to do so because they want to choose the best candidates to study at UTP and for the scholarship too. That means UTP will be my third interview because the first one is Shell and second is Sime Darby. Just today, I still not accept any reply from Sime Darby but I know that I am failed to get the scholarship. What I have to do is just forget it ( already forget about it ) and be prepare well for UTP. One of my ultimate gola in my life is I want to work with big company and using my talents for the development of the company and country with achieving the company's ultimate goal. That's what I want most in my life and also the simple one, make my family proud and happy with me by providing them with happy life like they want to. So, all the best for me and I hope I can do at UTP much better. Good luck Rosly!!

Stage 3.. I'm done..

Well, just later. It was on of the hardest part in my life that I have ever experienced. It's so hard till I've got headache after that. I'm done with interview. I woke up about 8.30pm and my uncle already here to pick me up but I'm still not take shower yet. So I thought, why did we have to go at 8.30am and my interview will only start about 11.30am? Haha. It's ridiculous. He pick me up early because he didn't know where is the Grand Dorsett Hotel actually. So, after take a shower and breakfast, we're trying to find that place. After almost 30 minutes and asked few people, we took decision to take for a cab to send us to that place. So, I arrived about 10.45am and I met new friend, Nabilah. He was from same session of online assessment with me. So, we are waiting for the other candidates to finish. By the way, we get to know each other and I remember their names. For the session two, they have seven candidates included me. They are Ken, Joanne, Nabilah, Farhan, Angela, Alex and me. I think it was only me who came from Sabah. While we are waiting the session started, we talked and asked the others about age, courses and university. I just a bit like a stone because they speak english fluently. So fast and I can't caught what the topic did they discuss.

We started the first session about 12pm and it was individual presentation. I just want to say that it was the hardest question that I have to answer in my life. I think I would rather to answer physics question because business management is not what I expert on. I just trying to think positively and I have to do this. I only have 30 minutes to prepare ( which I think it's not enough) and 15 minutes to present. Then, the assessor asked me about the presentation that I made. Hopefully, I did my best and I know that I stucked during the presentation. I am too nervous. The question is about Natural Healthcare. They give us information about the company, the findings and many more. They asked me to find out what they most significant findings that bring to success of the nature healthcare, way to overcome the weakness for the company and plan for the next 1-2 years for the company to develop. I started to present and finish.

After that, we have a break and we went to lunch ( but i didn't lunch because I'm not hungry yet ) and go to prayer. Next is our second assessment. It is group discussion. All of us ( 7 persons ) going to discuss with 7 assessors behind us (it felt so awkard) about which one company should be close. I just dissapointed with myself in this group discussion because I didn't talk a lot. I'm just trying to hear what they said but I can't because they talked too fast just like Haniey ( a friend from KML ). It is about 30 minutes and we're done.

Final assessment is about roleplay. I have to persuaded a person to work back my company in Kuala Lumpur.I hate this part because I'm not a good at acting. So, I used perhaps about 15 minutes to persuaded this person and it's finished!

All in all, what I just want to say is I need to learn english again and I want to learn how to speak clearly and fastly. I still have some things to improve and I don't know if I will shortlist for the final stage. Beside that, I want to say my opinion here. I am applying for engineering but why all the assessments are about the business? The questions should be change due to the different course. Example for the engineering student, they can give us a few products that related to engineering stuff and choose which one which will bring profit to the company. I want something that related to engineering. I just said my opinion here. Sorry. OK. I'm finished and just hoping for the best for me.

Fifteen by Taylor Swift, online assessment and UTP..

While typing down, I just listened to Taylor Swift song, Fifteen. Just another beauty song but I love the most is The Best Day. That song really cool and can make you tear drops when you're just listened to it. I hope I will have the best day with my dad and seem like it's too late because we're just not too close as the son and dad should look alike. Actually, what I just want to say is I miss my family. I miss my mom, dad and sis. I don't know when I will be back.

About few days ago, I just attend online assessment with Sime Darby. The online assessment separately into three parts and the first part is Verbally. We are given few passages to read and have to choose which two statements are correct. It's quite hard question because when you read all the option answers, the answers seem correct. But, it's just tacky question and we have to answer about 24 questions and guess what? We only have 20 minutes to finish that verbal question. I didn't manage to answer all the questions because lack of time and I'm pretty sure that the other candidates also didn't finish it. After verbal, we have mathematic quiz. Also 24 questions and 20 minutes to finished it. It's so ridiculous because how possible you cab answer mathematic questions less than one minutes for each question? *except you're genius* and guess what? I didn't finish it because again, the same reason time. Anyway, I was satisfied with mathematic than verbal because I think mathematics is easy than the verbally. The last test is personality test. It's just easy because there are no correct or not answer in it. We have to answer that question based on our personality. Strongly agree, agree, neutral, disagree and strongly disagree. Just choose either one. It's about 300 questions and heck, my neck was hurt during the personality test. I thought there will be group discussion about the current topic because before this, I checked on web and found out that there will be two tests, group discussion and online assessm,ent. So, today I'm just waiting for the result and I just hoped that I will call for the next stage. I hope I can do it.

Next, I am stupid because it is only 2 days left before the admission is closed. I really want to apply for UTM ( universiti teknologi petronas) which I really wanted to study about petroleum engineering. Yesterday is the last day for online application and fortunately, I can submit my form before the end of online application. But, I am wondered. Why do we have to send our form and certificates after fill up our application online? It's not easy because we have to send it manually before 14th december and today is 11 december and I'm still not send my form yet. I just hoping that I can send my form today and today, I have a lot things to do. I have to go to CIMB bank to pay RM20 for the UTP's fees, and send it using Pos Laju. I must do it today or NEVER!!

Lastly, I will update more.. See you again next time..

before I'm leaving..

Just like what I said, I'm going to KL today and perrhaps, for this time, this post will be the last post that I write before I'm leaving. I just wake up from a nap and the first thing that I want to do is facebooking*I'm addicted to facebook* and update my blogspot before I leave. So, about few hours, I leave this small town which give me a lot experiences. Sorry, I just feel the way I write like I'm not coming back here. Actually the situation is I just don't know when I will be back home. Only god will know when I will be back to here. Maybe next month, next year or NEVER.. Just leave it to God and what I have to do is just enjoy this experience. I already told Sue and Dewi that I'm leaving, just sadly they didn't give any wish for me. I don't know what happen actually. I felt so sad with them. But, they're just human being and I just to forgot it because maybe they have problem that can't be negletted. I just keep saying this to me. But, I will sms them again before I leave and I'm hoping their response. Only that I can say about.

Just yesterday, Shikin and me, ya only both of us who only watch New Moon because our friends are planning want to watch that movie together. Unfortunately, only Shikin and me that are coming to the cinema. Actually, I don't care if they came or not because I really want to watch that movie since 26 November. New Moon is only available just two days ago and it's suck. Never mind because I have watched it. It's just awesome as me, hehe, actually like Twilight. But, if I have to choose between Twilight and New Moon, I will just choose Twilight because usually, first movie make frist impression. About New Moon, it just awesome and fun. The ending just funny because Edward just said, "Marry me, Bella". The end. Only that. What I was hoping actually Edward bites Bella, so that Bella can be like them someday. But, I just think that Jacob should end up with Bella because they are just perfct for each other. OMG! I confessed that I am a big fan of Twilight Saga and I hope I can read the books. It's just I don't have free time to read it but I will try it.

Just wondering, if you have to choose, what do you want to be? Vampire or Wolf? Vampire is just cold,emo, and sparkling. Wolf is hot, friendly and muscle. So, which one you want to be?I will just I want to be wolf because vampire is just too pale and sparkling and I don't like that. Ya, before I wacthed New Moon and I only have Twilight in my mind, I really want to be a vampire because Jacob characther isn't attract me at all because of lack appearance in that movie and his long hair. Jacob's long hair is so suck. In New Moon, he cut it and he is so cute with his muscle body. So, what say you? What do you want to be??

OK. I'm leaving this town at 9.05pm and just wish and pray for me. I will do my best there and not make my parents dissapointed with me because I don't want to. Bye, again this is the last post I'm here.. Good Bye Tawau, I'll miss you.. *crying* *endaklah bha aku sampai nangis gitu tapi hiba bha mau tinggalkan family ku yang tersayang*

5th december 2009

ya, friends.. Like I've told you before this in facebook, I'm leaving Tawau this 5 december.. It's only three days left here and I don't know what I'm supposed to do to enjoy my last time here. But, I really wanted to do is I want to watch New Moon which I have waiting for since 26 Nov and guess what? New Moon isn't available yet in Tawau and it's already 3rd december. I know.. It's suck!! and I'm hoping that I can watch it today or tomorrow. I wanted to watch it before I'm leaving Tawau bha..

First of all, I'm going to KL because I want to attend interview for undergraduate scholarship by Sime Darby. Actually, it is the second stage and it's about online test and verbal. I have made some research about how will the interview take place. Just like I've found out in internet, we'll have verbal tets which is like MUET test and I'm not good in speaking but I will try my best. The assessor will give us a topic where there will be four person and we have to discuss about the topic that given. It's not quite hard because I have experienced it before this. It's just exactly like MUET test. After the verbal test, we have to attend online assesment which will have us to answer the question with computer. we will be test about numbers and personality. I guess it's what the stage no. 2 looks alike. If I success this stage, there will be stage no. 3 which is I think the hardest part of interview. It's kinda face-to-face interview, group discussion and roleplaying*and I hate roleplaying so much because i'm not good in roleplaying*. But, I iwll try my best during the interview. Good luck for me.

Then, I'm planning to do the walk-in interview to the UITM because I really want to precede my study as soon as possible. So, it's my side-plan. Just, I will ask my auntie to help me with this walk-in interview. I know UITM is not my type of University that I want, but I really can't pick which University I want to. It's not matter where you study, whether it in good ranking university or not, but, it's how you will make it for you to success.

Next, I'm also planning to work if I didn't place myself in UITM. I just want to earn and save some money for me to precede my study. Just want to gain some work experience and it will help me to improve my confident and communication skills.

So, it's all about my plan to KL and I hope I can make it and what I want most is I want to get the scholarship. I didn't put too much hope on this scholarship but I take it as precious experience and hope I will get it. Amin.

November 2009

Wow.. Time passed so fast and it is the end of October. Just in two month, it will be 2010 and I am getting older. Before this, I used to write short notes but now, going to write blog.. Hmm.. This is sort of my plan for this November.. I want to but new bag for me because the old one was lame.. Just want to buy the new one because I want to. UITM's result for admission will come out in the first week of November and I am hoping, really hoping that I will enter in UITM this year. Then, there will be two movies that I am waiting for this year. They are '2012' and 'New Moon'. Yeah, I am so excited about these movies and perhaps, I am going to watch it alone. Not because I dont have friends but I prefer to watch it by myself. Just like Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince. I want to watch it again.. Maybe this month will be the last month for me to work at TopUp because I really want to quit from it.Maybe I'm looking for job that will pay me more. I need more money because I want to keep it for myself. Ya, you know something like emergency. About music, can't wait to listen to Adam Lambert and Kris Allen songs. Ya, I am a big fan of American Idol.. But, I hate the Adam Lambert's cover album because that picture supposed to be in America's Next Top Model. But, it's okay because I just want to listen to his songs, not his album cover. So, it's only from me and at least, I have something update from this blogspot. See you again.. (I dont know if there will be anyone who read this stupid blog)

they are leaving..

this time i am alone..

left here.. stay alone and have no one with me..

starting to appreciate things that missing..

hoping that they will come back here..

feel so lonely without them..

what I can do is counting the days till they come here..

--JUST WAITING--

i'm saying this..

don't pretend like you care about me..

don't pretend like you know about me..

why only just today you learn what is F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P..

why only today??

just leave me if that you want..

when you come here, you didn't tell me

but, when you're leaving, you're looking for me..

to spend time with..

why only just the day you are leaving??

tell me why..

updating my BLOG..

It's been a while I didn't write here.. Miss to write here about my boring life..

Right now, listening to know your enemy and really enjoy that song.. and it has became one of my most favourite song.. listen to Greenday really reminds me to sumone.. Azlan.. hear from friend that he is in NAVY now.. Good, hope he will enjoy his work..

Trying to work out my blogspot layout but don't know how to do it.. I don't care actually since black is one of my feveret colour.. Rosly, stop saying nonsense here..

Currently, I'm working.. Just as a salesboy.. Low class job but really enjoy it becoz met friends and have chit-chat with them.. talk about their life.. Really enjoyed it becoz finally, have friend to talked with.. All my friends have precede their study and busy with their task and life.. and I'm still here.. :((

Sometimes, feel so boring becoz there's nothing to do.. So, taking my own pics and my friends.. trying specs, bow tie, and many more.. Enjoy this pics..

I'm trying specs.. wanna buy it but someone already bought it.. Haha..

Me with my friends.. actually we are five but she is not in this pic.. wearing mask for prevention of H1N1 but we do only wear this when there were many customers.. me, Baby, Quya and Julia..

This is what we have to wear everyday.. we only have to wear plain black and white t-shirt only.. so sad because before this, I'm wearing my colourful t-shirt.. :(

One of my feveret t-shirt that sold at the place I'm working.. It's so funny.. Hehe..

OK. Before I leave, just want to say Happy Ramadan to all my friends.. C U later.. Bye~

April 1, 2009..

Ya, tomorrow will be the first day for August. Why with the date? Actually, nothing. Just want to inform all of my buddies that I'll be working again. Just like last year. After I didn't place myself into any local universities, took decision to work. Of course I have to working. If not, what else? Stuck in home? No way.. I will die due to boringness.. Because at home, I have nothing to do because I'm not in the mood to help anyone and I like to just eat, sleep and watch TV. That's my bad habits.. never mind because I'll start working tomorrow but only for temporarily. I will work only start from August 1, 2009 til September 22, 2009. Yeah, I know it's a short time but I only work as part time. If they feel want to take me to work permanent, I'll just accept it.. Because working is the only way I can forget my problem. Yesterday, I was very depressed. I've never been like this and there's something that stuck in my mind. Ya, further study. I was so upset till I decided want to study in college. I'm so emotional. Finally, I took a break with sleep and eat. After that, I decided again I want to work first to earn extra money for me and try again next year. Actually, I'm planning to apply for the second semester intake in any university. I think it's the only one reason that stopped me from taking college. Ya, I can wait for another five months. Ahhh.. Actually I don't but I have to be patience. Ohh.. To my firends, if you know anything about second intake in your university, please let me know ya? Because I'll don't have time to surfing the net since I have to work and go back to my home at Tanjung Batu.. I hope I have phone with me but my phone is broken, so it's hard for me to call and sms my friends.. But, I will but new one if I have money from my salary. Ok. That's all about me and hope you'll enjoy your very first day of August. See you then.

MUET result..

Finally, I got my MUET result and I'm so satisfied with the band 3 because I really have tried my best on that day. Although there are few papers that I'm not satisfied with. Before this, in matric I scored about 12/45 in my listening paper and it became worst because I only have 9/45. I am okey with it because I really can't hear anything what the speaker talked about although I have tried my best to listen it. Next, my speaking paper. I'm so mad about my speaking paper because actually, I thought that I can score about 25 and above because in matric, I have 22/45. Unfortunately, I only have 15/45. It's the most dissapointed for me because I didn't know what's wrong with my speaking on that day. Plus, reading comprehension. Just Ok. 75/125. About the last paper, writing. I satisfied with this mark because really, I can't believe that I scored 70/90. Finallly, sum up the marks and I got Band3 with total sum of 169. Just regret it because I didn't do well in my listening and speaking papers. I only have 11 marks for me to score for band4. It's so closed and I'm pretty sure that I can score Band4 if I do well in my speaking paper. Ahh.. Can't regret it anymore because it's past time. Just leave it..

Menggapai Bintang

Last Night, I just finished reading a book about the experience of our first Malaysia Astronaut. He is Datuk Dr. Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor. Before this, I used to hate him so much and the reason, I don’t know why. I really don’t care about his journey to the space. Beside that, I think government really waste money spending million ringgits just to send an astronaut and achieved dream to have the first one astronaut in Malaysia.

However, I started change my mind when I found this book ‘Menggapai Bintang’ written by Sheikh Mustapha Shukor Al-Masrie. When I read this book, I really changed my first impression to Datuk Dr. Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor a.k.a. Amus. Before this, I don’t know anything about his life and what he has to face to achieve his dream. So, reading this book really changed my mind at all and I’m sorry for not to support him. I shouldn’t do this and I regret it. Finally, I finished this book and I’m kind of sad because there are happy and sad moments in this book. I still remember this date and will remember it for entire of my life because it’s a history for Malaysia. We are so proud with achievement of Amus.

On 10th October 2007, it was the most amazing moment for Malaysia Nation because just in few minutes, Amus is going to the space and invent history with becomes the first Malaysia Astronaut. Ten days after the launch of the rocket that brought Amus to the space, Sheikh Mustapha Shukor Al-Masrie a.k.a. Ajil fell off and was sent to the hospital. Unfortunately, the accident was too serious and he was coma. It was so sad because actually, the one who write this book is Ajil. Ajil also the closest person to Amus and always support Amus all the time to become an astronaut. All his siblings cared for him and pray day and night.

But, what the doctor said they need miracle to happen. However, his brother didn’t believe it and he said that Ajil was strong and he can wake up from coma. Unfortunately, he failed to wake up from coma and died. It was so sad because the person that wrote and dedicated this book to Amus doesn’t have the chance to see Amus arrived safely. On the same day, someone arrived but someone leave. It’s our god plan and they know that there must be something benefit from its. I felt sad for their parents because on the same day, they received two different reactions from people. They said congratulation for Amus but sorry for Ajil. It’s so sad. What made this story sadder is Amus arrived only after four hours after Ajil is buried. Amus don’t have the chance to see Ajil for the last time. However, what did Ajil left for Amus is a book ‘Menggapai Bintang’.

Here’s a quote from Amus to Ajil.
‘Kamulah peminatku yang nombor satu. Kamu sentiasa percaya kepada kebolehanku. Perjalanan ke angkasa merupakan satu penghormatan buatmu, Ajil.'

so, I want to say congratulation to Amus for made this dream for Malaysia. You're our hero. and al-fatihah for Ajil.

what will happen to me next?

Hmm~ I always asked myself this question. What will happen to me next? Because I have no idea what my future life looks alike. OK. I'm going to tell you all about my life.

1st, I have applied for UPU to enter the University. Unfortunately, I didn't make it and I applied again for the UPU appeal. However, I'm pretty sure that I will not success on UPU appeal because I'm still using my LPM number, not my ID card number. So, it's really waste my chance.

2nd, I just received my letter from Asia Pasific Flight Training and offered to be a pilot. However, it was not so easy because the fees, about rm240 000 and my family told me that I can buy a bungalow with that money. It was ridiculous too. Anyway, my friend told me that I can apply for MARA's scholarship to pay my fee. But, I went to Mara's Building and she said MARA didn't have what I want. So, I checked the MARA's website but I can't find it anywhere. Also googled it, but can't find it. Hmm~ I don't have still worry about this because I will find it again and again. Being a pilot, I can fly anywhere. Hehe..

3rd, my BFF kin told me that I should send e-mail to the vice chancellor of the uni that I want to enter. Thumbs up for Shikin because she really helps me so much. So, I just sent the e-mail and wait for the best.

4th, bad scenario~ I didn't enter university this year. Maybe I should enter university next year and I can find job so that I can earn money to prepare myself in financial. But, I still don't know if I still want to study if I am 22 years old. We will just wait and see.

5th, I will enter UMS this year with my uncle help with choosing chemical engineering as my course. however, I don't want chemical engineering just because many universities in Malaysia offer this course. So, we have to compete and the best one will win this battle. Beside that, my ex-tutorial, Ronald told me about the situation in UMS. I told him to tell me about the good one if I were in UMS but, guess what? He told me about the negative one. Haha~ Ronald.. Based on his explanation, UMS will be my last choice. I can't believe that we have to share one dorm with six persons. Hmm~ I hope there will be two persons only in a room because it's the best.

So, I will just wait what happen to me next. We will wait and see.

It's been a while..

Yeah, I know that it's been a while since my last post here. That's because I went back to my parents' home and now finally, I'm here again in my aunt's home. And I'm going to tell you guys anything that happen to me for almost one month. I found it's interesting to read my friends' blogs like C-Kin, GWen and Jen. Ya, they wrote a lot in their blog.

First, I just have my letter from Asia Pasific Flight Training and offer me a place at there. At first, I just fill up the form because it was easy because we can apply online because Alif told me before this, they have to apply manually. When I opened the letter, and I have a bit shocked to see the feed that I have to pay for two-years programme. Wow. Almost Rm240 000. I know that I can't afford it and I just gave up on it. But, Alif told me that I can apply for Mara scholarship to pay the fees. I will just give it a try.

Then, when I opened my e-mail a few days ago, I just got an e-mail from ASTRO company asks me to attend an interview which will be held at Bukit Jalil. At first, I was so happy because Astro give me a chance to precede my study to overseas. Actually, I have applied to study in University of Manchester when I fill up the form and I don't have idea where else university I choose in overseas. But, I don't think that I will pass the interview so, I think I will just left it behind. What a wasteful chance. Actually, I'm afraid if I will only waste my parents' money and fail the interview. Wah, it's all about the money. The interview will be held this 23 Jun and I still don't know that if I will go or not. Just wait.

Then, about the UPU result. Haha.. Just like what I have expected. I didn't make it again this year. So, I am applying again for the 'rayuan'. Even after applying it, I know that I won't make it.

Then, what I have waiting for almost six years finally come to me. I just checked JPN website last night, and mycard is here waiting for me. I'm going to take it this Monday and i feel a bit excited about this. Bha, have to go now and I hope luck will be on my side.

12nd May 2009.. (part1)

OK. I will start from the morning. First, that day I'm going to attend a speaking paper for the second time. Before this, I have taken MUET in LMC but need to take it again because I was dissatisfy with the band I got. So, I think I will be in the second group but unfortunately, I was the first group for that morning because one of the candidates from that group was absent. I was so nervous because have to be the first group but I was so lucky because I'm candidate D and it gives me more time to think for my individual presentation. I'm so glad because if I were in second group, I will be candidate A. I'm so happy. Then, let me tell you about our question. It's about which is the most important benefit a person works overseas. My benefit is memorable experience which I don't think it's not the most strong opinion at all. The other candidates opinion, can be independent, new environment and earn money. Precede to the task B, we have group discussion and I am the one start the discussion. At first, I stayed with memorable experience and i tried to convince the others. However, at the first round, we have 1-1-2. Me, choose the memorable, candidate A choose the independent and the rest choose new environment. But, it's changed after the third round and it was 1-3. I stay with my opinion and I was the minority. I try to said to the other candidates about the new environment here includes the new lifestyles like sex, drug and alcohol. How if a person addicted to these? Finally, at the last round- I changed my opinion because we must came up with a conclusion and I have to agree with their opinion. But, i'm so happy because it's already finished. So, I hope I will score about band 3 and above although I knew that I didn't do well in my listening paper. Anyway, Good luck to me!!

I will goin to tell you but I don't know when for the second part which is the worst part in my life. Ever!! Just wait.

still waiting and hoping..

Everyday, I checked the e-mail to see if there is a calling for me to attend an interview for the scholarships that I have applied before. But, I was so dissapointed because there's nothing for me except message from facebook, friendster and spam. I felt like I want to give up (again) just because of that. Anyway, I still have to WAIT and HOPE that magic will happen to me. I hope so!

Then, I want to say WELCOME HOME to all my friends and enjoy your holiday here as you can because for the next two month, you are going to leave Tawau to study again. And, I hope I will join you guys to study in university at that moment. I just hoping that will happen!! Because i'm so tired to waiting for my dream to come true.

Then, i'm sick. I have FLU and it started a few days ago. I hope it will stop before I sit for my speaking paper because it will affect my presentation and performance during that paper and of course I want to do my best! And guess what? I'm afraid if it was swine flu. Haha.. I'm not kidding because I have all the symptoms that shown except cough. I also have muscle joint but that is because I exercised so hard lately... Haha.. Exercise is one of the way to have healthy lifestyle. So, hope I will recover soon.

ok! I will post again maybe and I dont know when.

Anyway, more care less hate..

Dissapointed..

Well, I just finished my exam MUET and I think I didn't do my best. Hmm.. Let me tell you what has happened today.

For the paper reading, I really don't like the passages because it's quite hard to understand. Then, I don't have enough time to read again and checked my answer. But, I hope I can score for that paper.

Next, for the writing paper and the issue here is I don't have enough time. Ahhhh!! Guess what? For the question 1, we have to elaborate two graphs in 150-200 words and I spent about 50 minutes on this. It's really big mistake because I only have 40 minutes for question 2. Again, I don't have enough time to plan for my introduction and conclusion. So, I just plan my points. Let me tell you what the question about. The question : ICT is a cause for many social ills. Agree or not? My opinion? Disagree.. Haha.. Again, when the time is finished, I'm just finished writing my conclusion. What the heck. I hope I have enough time to write out my draft and essay.

Plus, my listening paper. OMG! I can't hear any words when the player was playing. The volume was too slow and I can't hear it well. It's one of my biggest weakness. I'm trying to listen but at last, I can't hear it. So, I just write based on logic for the subjective questions and for objective questions, I tried to take a look at someone paper and sorry, i'm cheated in exam. But, I have to do this or I will repeat again this MUET paper.

My next paper is 12nd may 2009 nad I hope I can speak coherently and clearly. All the best for me and welcome home to my friends!! Happy holiday to you and I have been in mood of holiday since April 2008. It's suck!! Hehe..

I'm nervous..

I just want to mention here.. Right now, I am listening to the song Kristy, are you doing okay by the offspring. I like this song so much and it just remind me to the song Hey There Delilah by The Plain T's.

Well, back to the thing what I'm nervous. Ya, this saturday. I'm going to take the test gaian. For the second time. It's quite embarrassed because I have to re-sit the exam again because I didn't score well on the first exam. Not all my friends know that I'm going to take MUET again this year because I scored band 2 before this.

Start from the last year, I have been studying about English. That's why I'm writing my blogs in English. I have to do this, so that I can improve. 2 days till the day. I'm nervous, again because one week before the day, I don't know what to do else. I just waste my time with sleep, eat, watch TV and online.

Nah, this April I have become sleep-addicted and I don't know why. Anyway, I hope I will do well on this exam and score the band that I want or I have to repeat it again for the third times. Hmm... I think I don't have problem because my grammar, writing and speaking really improved compared to the last year.

But, the thing that I still don't fix is my listening. Haha.. I'm a half-deaf (I can't hear well from my left ear) that's why I can't score in listening paper. But, I will try.

Anyway Rosly, good luck for the exam and I want to say good luck to my friends too who will or already take their exam start from this month. Good Luck everybody!!

the phone interview..

Huh.. Finally, I'm so glad because I have attended the interview and I want to finish it as soon as possible. The interviewer called me about 2pm and I have been waiting in a private room in my home about 1.45pm. I'm so nervous and excited because I'm afraid if I can't answer she about what she asked me about and this is the first interview in my life. I hope I have done my best because I want this scholarship badly. She told me that the interview will took time about 45-60 minutes but the actual thing is she interview me for about 1 hour and 30 minutes. It such a long time and I'm so tired after the interview. Almost the question that she asked me is about my achievement. It's so hard because I don't have enough time to think my answer and I just think the first thing that came to my mind. Guess what? When she asked me about my achievement, I just thought about The Amazing Race in matrix that I join. I don't know what to answer else. What the heck!! haha.. Then, she asked me about my next achievement and I just think about my english assignment in LMC> Haha.. I don't know what to else. Hmm.. After that, she gave me four topics and I have to choose which one I want to elaborate. I choose the last topic because it is the only topic that I can hear the whole sentences. She asked me to elaborate about how the internet affected the business? Haha.. I'm keep talking and I just want to finish it. Lastly, the interview ends. I hope I will make it and shortlist for the next interview. I hope i will make it!! What I can say? This is my very first interview and I'm felt so lucky because I have the chance.. Thank you..

Finally..

Finally, the sun shines for me for the time of my life. I can fell the light and warm. It heat me so much and this is what I need in my life. A chance for me to prove to them that I'm the most eligible person that they have been looking for. However, I'm still not sure if I will attend the interview because my family seem like don't want me to attend the interview. Because of their skeptical thought, that I will waste my parents' money only if I don't shortlist as the successful candidate. Yeah, I know there will be winner and loser in the game but before that, I should give it a try. Maybe it'll change my life at all. I don't afraid for the outcome but at least, I give it a try.

Just like the song of David Cook, 'the time of my life', that's song is really fix with me so much. Because I have been waiting for this dream, something that impossible to do but I will just try it and give my best. Now, I can feel my world start to turn because for the chance that they give me. Not only that, but the song by Miley Cyrus also fix with me because the lyrics. I almost can see it, of course my dream. But, there's a voice inside my head that I'll never reach it because of my weakness. For every seconds in my life, I have thought that it's impossible. Hmm.. I don't know but I will give it a try and give my best again for that day again. I want to say thank you so much for the chance that they give to me and I appreciated it!! Thanks!!

Give up!!

Huh? Who is the laziest person in the world? For this moment, I would say myself. Ahh.. I'm the laziest person in the world and i don't know what's wrong with me. Everyday, I felt so tired until I can't study and prepare for the coming exam. I have my plan on what I should do due to the date but I don't follow it well. When I felt like I want to do it, I will. But, if I'm in bad mood.. Now way I will study.. I will just surf the net and watch TV. What the heck with me? I hope someone will help me and give me support because I felt like I want to gave up. I have many things to gave up. I'm so tired to think about my chance to precede my study in higher education. I can't hold this anymore. Sometimes, I have been thinking that I won't precede my study this year and maybe I won't precede my study anymore. What stucked in my mind was I just want to work and earn money. Build new life and make my parents happy with me, not suffer. I also has gave up with my ID card. I have been wait for 8 months and I still don't have any response from them. I don't know if I can wait for it anymore but I felt so tired. I think I can wait, but till when do I have to wait? 2010? OMG!! It's so suck. I don't know what elso to do anymore. Then, I felt gave up too with my scholarships. I don't care about it anymore. I just have applied for seven scholarships and I have rejected by three scholarships. I'm trying to say to myself that I will get one scholarship at least but sometimes I think I won't. This is due to the same problem that I have faced since I was form . Ohh.. It's has been 7 years I still don't settle my problem. With all these problems, its gave me effect to my preparation to study. I'm going to take the exam on 25th april and I still haven't study anything yet. At this moment, I need anyone who can help me. Give me moral support please!! I don't know what else to do. I felt like there's no need for me to do well in my exam because perhaps I won't precede my study at all. Sometimes, we have to give up on dreams, so that we can looking for another dreams. I have to gave up on my ID card, precede my study and scholarship because I have new dream.. That is because I want to make my family happy with me. I know it's only me have the chance to change my family situation but there are a lot ways I can do that. Not only precede my study will make they happy with me, but I will try looking for permanent job and working for all my life until I can earn my money and give it to my parents. Hmm.. I know I shouldn't sigh about my fate but sometimes, you have to know when to forget and give up in your dreams because you won' make it eventhough you have try your best. but, this doesn't mean that my hope will end here but the actual thing is, there are new chances coming after me and I just have to put my effort and looking for it. I know there will be something for me. I know it was God the biggest plan for me but I have no idea what it is about. So, what I have to do just looking for it on the horizon, magic rainbow. Anyway, I'm looking toward for the new life!!

Earth Hour? Didn't work..

At 8.30pm, people around the Malaysia have switched the lights till 9.30pm at 28/03/2009. But, there are still few people who don't care about this campaign. I really excited about this Earth Hour and really want to support. Unfortunately, I think I just switch off the lights about 30%. My auntie told me not to switch off the lights because it was not important. She told me to look around and no one our neighbour did switch off the lights. Anyway, I just tried to switch off the lights as much as I can to save our Earth from global warming. Anyway, Go for our earth!!

new member..

We have new family member and I'm so happy about it. My auntie, Kak Ros has safe giving to birth a boy two days ago. He was born in 25/3/2009. Before that date, she went to Hospital at 24/3/2009 and her husband tell us that his wife sent to hospital. When he told us the news, I was so excited and happy. I felt like it was my wife and she is going to give birth. I'm so happy and excited too!! Finally, the baby was born at 1pm ( I don't know the exactly time but it almost 1pm) at 25/3/2009. He is so cute and beauty. It's so amazing. The combination of sperm and ovum produce the baby. Oh, it's so amazing and awesome.

Ovum + Sperm = Baby

But, till today.. he doesn't has name. His parents still don't decided what name want to give but I want his name.. Mohd Ashraff Dhianshah. I think they will choose another name but never mind, I will keep this name for my son. Haha.. I'm already have a name for my son. This is so funny. Ok. Stop. Here is his pics.

He is so cute right? At this moment, he is 3 days. OMG!! He is so cute and keep mesmerized me!! Bye.. Lastly, more care less hate!!

True Blue by Luanne Rice

I just found out that reading is great!! I love it so much and i spent my day reading almost the day.. I enjoyed it and can't wait to finish the book because I want to know the ending. sad or happy? I have to read it till the final chapter and with that i will know the ending. I just have finished the True Blue yesterday by Luanne Rice and started to reading the new book.

OK. True Blue. This is book is about two sisters and the boy next door. they are Rumer, Elizabeth and Zeb. First of all, since their childhood, Rumer and Zeb had fallen in love but her sister, Elizabeth just ruined their relationship. Elizabeth had planned everything that will make Zeb will fall in love with her and it's worked. But, after a few years, they have a son, Michael. After that, they were divorced because they aren't compatible anymore. So, Zeb took decision to spent the summer in Hubbard's Point with Michael while Elizabeth went to somewhere. There, they fall in love withourt Elizabeth knowing it.But, after Elizabeth realized what she's doing was wrong, she took decision to told Rumer about her plans and everything. Last, Michael had found someone, Quinn.

It's a love story and I love it all.

My marriage age is 28.. haha..

Put an X in every box that applies to you.
Add up all the x's and title subject with the sum as "My marriage age is__"& those who are tagged, do it!(i'm tagging every blogger who happens to read this post, wawawa)

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own more than one credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You do your own laundry
[ ] You vote every election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[ ] You think politics are exciting
[ ] You balance your own checkbook
[ ] Your parents have better things to say than your friends
Total: 4[x]

[x]You show up for school/college/work every day early
[x ] You always carry a pen in your pocket/purse
[x] You've never gotten a detention
[ ] You have never smoked a cigarette
[ ] You have never gotten completely trashed
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You've watched talk shows.
[x] You know what 'credibility' means without looking it up
[x] You drink coffee[caffeine] at least once a week.
Total: 7[x]

[x]You know how to do the dishes.
[ ] You can count to 10 in another language
[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[x] My parents trust me
[x] You can mow the lawn
[x] You can make adults laugh without being stupid
[ ] You remember to water the plants
[x] You study when you have to
[x] You pay attention at school/college
[ ] You remember to feed your pets
Total: 7[x]

[x]You can spell 'experience' without looking it up.
[x] You work out on a regular basis.
[x] You clean up your own mess
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[ ] You have gained weight since middle/high school
[ ] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type quickly
Total: 5[x]

[x]You have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[ ] Most of all your friends are older than you are
[x] You can say no to staying out all night
[x] You use the internet every day
[x] Your wardrobe hasn't changed in a while
[x] You can read a book and actually finish it
Total: 5

Grand Total = 28

The Most Stupid Thing..

Haha.. today, i just wanted to write a letter.. then, i forget what does the word 'dokumen' in english.. so, i opened the dictionary and guess what i have found.. Document.. haha.. how i'm supposed to forget the word.. Super Duper Stupid..

Quotes..

i really LOVE this quotes so much.. i just took it from the book that i have read.. awesome!!

Summer Light by Luanne Rice

'Love doesn't stop just because a person dies'

Black Creek Hill by John Saul

'Mix lover's blood
drawn by knife
symmer long
to bring back life

a bit of earth
from loved's grave
the blue of grief
will help to save'

Summer Light by Luanne rice..

HI guys.. i just have finished reading the 'Summer Light' by Luanne Rice.. it's love story and i like the Black Creek Hill.. it's story about widower and widow.. meet at the plane.. they are destiny for each other.. may has a daughter named Kylie. Kylie can predict what happen in the future and can saw angel. the angel actually is Nat. Nat is Martin's daughter.. but, his daughter died in accidentally caused by Martin's father. so, from that Martin can't forgive his father.. but, May tried to bring back his father-in-law to his husband.. unfortunately, Martin loss his sight and can't play for the Stanley Cup.. he's playing hockey.. finally, he had won the Stanley Cup after loss it two times and he has forgive his father.. Love this sory so much.. here is the pic of the book..

Black Greek Crossing by John Saul

well, i have a book here.. i just borrowed it from Tawau Library.. and i'm not finish the book yet but maybe i'm going to finish it tonight or tomorrow.. anyway, it was thriller story but i love it.. one more about this book; it was New York times bestseller..amazing book.. i'm on page 324 of 459.. can't wait to finish it.. here is the cover of the book..

SMK Kinabutan..

Hell o!! well, today is march 2, 2009. Happy march.. why with the smk kinabutan?? Smk Kinabutan will be the place that i will take the MUET.. huh?? can't wait the day and i hope i will do my best.. darr.. just that what i want to say about.. bye bye!! more care less hate!!

Kris, Allison and Adam..

Here comes the contestants that survived to the final 12.. they are Kris, Allison and adam.. what i just want to commented here is about the performances.. hehe.. like a judge.. hmm.. almost of them choose the false song.. and the song just don't suit them.. when i watched their performances, i can summary up that in this group, the women really talented than the men. Yes, i really like their performance but unfortunately, they are not been chosen.. a bit dissapointed.. here are the pics of contestants who made it to top 12.

Kris

Kris, well.. you can see his pic.. so cute, good looking but he is not my choice.. i think there are more talented person in this group. but, you know the young ladies will vote for him.. just because he is so cute.. haha.. actually, he is good in singing too.. what i can do?? american has chosen him..

Allison

here come the youngest american idol..believe or not, she is just 16 years old and i kinda impressed with her because she is super duper good singer.. i like his hair so much.. she is very talented.. so much..

Adam

adam, he is emo-looks guy.. he also good singer but he doesn't attract me so much.. for me, he is just ok..

well, now i want to tell about the contestants who i think could be chosen in the final top 12. they are really good singers but unfortunately, america doesn't like them and i hope they will be chosen to the wild card. wild card, the candidates will be given the second chnace for them to perform again.. and again, america will choose who they think could be in top 12..

Nick

Jesse

Megan

i think they have perform well friday night and i just frusted when they didn't choose to the top 12. but, i think they will be choose for the wild card.. about nick, he is my favourite.. why?? just look out at his performance that night.. i know he is wasting his chance with perform like that, but i think he is good.. he is super duper funny.. hahaha.. Both of the girls, good singers too but they are not the american favourite..

here is the link video of Nick performance and i hope you will enjoy it too.. haha.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tON9hju29Ek&feature=related enjoy..

this thursday, the third group will perform.. i will update more.. bye.. more care less hate..

Danny, Michael and Alexis..

Now, i'm going to tell you guys about the three persons that i mentioned their names at the title.. They are Danny, Michael and Alexis. Here are some pics of them and i'm gonna tell you more about them.. Maybe some of you know about them and maybe don't. They are from group 1 who were competing for the 12 places in american idol 8. yeah.. i really love so much about the american idol and david cook too..

Danny

Alexis

Michael

Yeah, there are the first three contestants who got the places. Hmm.. about them.. i really d like them so much especially Danny and Michael. Danny sand hero by Mariah carey and it's awesome.. i think Michael and Alexis should choose song that really fu and suit them. Anyway, three of them are good!! Congrats!!

Next, i felt sad and sorry for Anoop and Tatiana. Because they are also my feveret contestants but ubfortunately, they didn't made it to top 12. They are really good singer. But, i hope they will get wild card from the judges.. Annop. He's indian but it don't sense anying and i think he has good voice. Tatiana. Haha.. Drama Queen.. that name I used t call her.. Haha.. she is gorgeous!! Beauy! bit crazy.. but can sing..

Anoop

Tatiana

I hope so!! i will inform more about them after the concert and decision that made.. anyway, thanks for read and support American Idol.. Haha.. Lastly, More care less hate!! MMuah.. ***wink***

i felt sorry for my bestfriend..

First of all, i want to say sorry for my bestfriend.. i don't know if i could mentioned it here but it's not the point.. i wanted to say sorry to my bestfriend because everything (the past things) that i did to her.. i may be selfish on my own but now, i felt guilty when thinking about that.. and that made me thought that i'm the worst person ever in the world.. the worst one.. i admitted that.. i called her about 7pm and she told me about everything that i never know about it.. i felt guity with her because before this, i always cheated on her.. often.. but the reality, i'm not a good best friend... she wants to help me but me?? never ever tried to help her.. but, i want her to know that we are still friends forever.. all the precious moments in our primary and secondary school, i won't forget it.. this reminds me to them.. all about us.. we study together, in the same class.. the top in the class... i missed it.. ok. this sunday, going to ask her out with my another friend.. this is only what i can do for her... forgive me ya?? i will be here if you ask my hands.. that's all.. love you!! last, more care less hate..

I have nothing to post!!

Hmm.. well.. i have nothing to post because my life was so boring.. just not like my friends..
they with their Uni life, study.. but me?? hmm.. everyday are more likely repetition.. what was happen yesterday, it is happen today and will happen again tomorrow.. i hope i will have more attractive days.. just like my other friends do.. their life more challenging but me?? nothing.. watching TV, MUET, internet, eat, sleep.. hAhA.. darr.. will tell you something next time!! lastly, more care less hate!!

five things you don't know about me..

first of all, that to Gwen Myra for this topic.. good topic.. i think.. hehe.. yeah, now, i'm going to reveal 5 things that you don't know about me.. lets begin..

1~ before i was 18, i really wanted want to be.. hmmm.. i want to engaged myself in creative and colours section.. what i mean creative here are something like decoration and fashion.. yeah. when i have spare time, i always trying to drew anything like house decoration and fashion too.. it's silly.. i'm so respected to them who are so creative with their imagination.. i hope i have it too.. my imagination.. just.. not too bad.. and i am not good at drawing..

2~ i am used to like reality show so much. all the type of reality show.. i love it so much.. survivor, the amzing race, deal or no deal, america's next top model, the apprentice, so you think you can dance, the project runway show, oprah give, malaysia most beautiful, akademi fantasia, american idol, one in a million, OMG!! i love this all!!

3~ I am Potteraholics.. yup.. i am one of the potter fanatic.. i really like their movie, book series.. they are so amazing.. i hope i live in Uk or US. why?? because they have fiesta(sp?) there about the harry potter.. and they are active.. so active in potter forums.. i'm trying to be active like them in da potter forums..

4~ i don't like football so much.. i dont care about it so much actually.. hehe.. football?? just.. i dont know.. hmm.. it's not my feveret.. but, when there is the competition like UEFA or something like that.. Manchester United, arsenal or Liverpool.. i just pretend like i like it too.. huhu.. so plastic!! sorryYa.. i dont like it so much!! but.. i have a trophy.. our class won the football competition.. we are form 1 match with form 3.. and we won.. and guess what?? i got trophy but i'm never touch or kick the ball.. hahaha!!

5~ i always watched all the show that might be the girls only watching it.. like what?? Oprah, america's next top model and the project runway.. So what?? i dont care about it actually.. i just like the information and the issues they bring out.. and i like the drama that happen in the reality show..that good!!

actually, i want to give ten but i cant find the rest.. so, i'm only can give you five only.. sorry ya!! lastly, more care less hate!!

it's raining..

Hmm.. it's raining right now.. and my emotion depend to the weather.. haha.. if it was raining, i will be sad.. and vice versa.. hope this rain will stop.. yeah !! i want to write something here.. kinda boring bha.. don't know what should i do.. everyday, my life just stucked in the home.. study english as the preparation for the muet.. watch my feveret show.. oprah.. hehe.. i know this show only for girls but i really like this show and it's so inspired me.. i don't know how it's inspired me.. but i believe it believe me a lot to understand about the topic that they always discuss.. my feveret topic? ya, yesterday.. about the financial education.. it's really help me a lot.. a lesson : don't tell you children you can afford it, but actually you can't. it's good for parents not to 'manjakan' their sons.. don't give reward for their achievement but give them the precious moment. like go to town.. spend some time with them.. hmm.. it's not like this.. i got A, yeah $50 for me.. it's not the way.. te best thing to do.. hehe.. spend the precious moment with your son..

next, it's 2nd february 2009.. about 2 month, i will re-taking the MUET.. and about 5 month, i iwll go to Uni.. i hope so.. but, i believe i will deserve it.. just wait.. what we need to do.. is patient.. just pray hope they will sort me into th Uni.. like the other days, it's so boring.. i broke my feveret mechanical pencil and i'm not in da mood want to study.. hehe.. it's my bad habit.. look like i have to buy the new one.. then, i iwll continue my study.. huh, it's raining cats and dogs right now.. Tawau.. it's the monsoon(sp?) season..

yeah, boycott to the US product.. thanks kin for remind about this thing.. i don't know if i'm pretty sure boycott this us product but what i can say is i don't drink cola anymore.. hehe.. guess what, Dr. Oz ( a guest in Oprah show) told us that bicarbonat drink contains more than 100 calories.. huh.. so, i have quit from drink cola.. and the others.. now, i preder.. nothing.. just water.. ahha..

WOW. this month we will see the fighting of reality shows.. haha.. but, it's my feveret show because i like all the reality shows.. hehe.. american idol, akademi fantasia 7 and one in a million.. wow, singing competition.. huh.. i know that i'm not good in singing but i really like singing.. it's enjoying bha.. love this guys so much.. they are so talented.. three david ( cook, archuleta, hernandez) haha..wah.. i like to talk a lot..

darr.. will post again when i am boring ya.. see you.. lastly, more care less hate!!

p/s: sorry for babbling here.. i don't know what should i tell you..

my life again..

Hello again.. i put the title : my life again because i don't know what i should put it in..
first, there are many scholarship that published.. and i think i should just apply it.. maybe it will be my turn to get the scholarship.. at least, i should give it a try right?? nothing wrong with it.. i hope i will get one of the scholarship.. i don't care from what company but i hope i will get it..

next, i have registered for the muet examination.. for the second time.. i'm not blaming myself for taking the muet for the second time because i know what my problem.. yeah, my friends know it too.. hehe.. i think listening is the hardest part.. but, i will not give up easily. i will just try to practise to listen to the different types of audio.. hmm.. buddies, i need your help.. what should i do to improve my listening skills?? help me.. speaking is not hard just like the past.. but now, i am confidence with myself when i'm trying to speaking.. just speak..

this april will be the examination for the listening, reading comprehension and writing. in may, there will be the speaking and i hope i will do better for the test. Good luck!! lastly, more care less hate!!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Last sunday, it was really hurt me because my BFF said sumthing that i wouldn't think will come out from his mouth. it made me feel that i am a bad . i know i am a bit selfish but i am doing this because i have my own reason. Busy is one of my life now. i have to do something which is i think i dont ever anyone to know. plus, my problem.. huh.. i have a lot to think.. to sue, i know that i have hurt you but plz dont say anything or something like that again. i just want you to know i will be by your side although i was not there with you. hopefully, you understand me!! just give some space, time.. i want to be alone.. and i just want you to know that you will always be in my heart.. Dewi, i'm not forget you.. both of you.. love you so much.. i am keep wondering why i have lost all my friends.. Azlansyah, Isumarni, diyan, siti hadarah, Pangiran Mohd Farouq, norfarishah.. hey!! where r u?? i'm still for you.. hope you will remember me and we will meet someday hopefully.. i miss 5 Amanah and F3T20 so much!! hope will meet you soon!! ASAP!!
lastly, More care less hate!!

bOrInG!!

My life's suck. dont know what should i do? everyday, wake up and sleep at the same time. doing the same things everyday. huh. kinda boring. but, fortunately.. at the new area my auntie home, there are wireless internet connection. huh.. love it.. but, i'm only can use it only from 11am til 11pm.. it's disconnect afterthe late nite.. hheheh..

i'm a bit lazy now.. i hate to study english.. kinda boring.. hushh.. but, will study when i get bored with internet.. yeah, one think i hate.. i cant opened the friendster.. i have been trying on it,but dont worked.. and thanks!! i love potter forums.. here is the potter fanatic.. just like me.. we are keep talking about hary, harry and harry.. hehehe.. and the others like hermione, neville, luna, Ron and many more.. my user name kiorsly.. here's the url.. www.potterforums.com enjoy ya?? bha.. i have to go.. boring!! lastly, more care less hate!!

finaLLy, i have made my decision..

Hmm.. I'm just already finished fill up the UPU and USM application. Haha.. it's a big and hard tasks. Because it will decide how will my future going be. it's brillian or not? hmm.. i just want to say thank you so much to all my fren who are care about me on what i could choose for my course in Univesity. I choose the course because of my friends opinion, combination of passionate and job opportunities. Actually, i still hoping to choose Pharmacy as my course but seem like it's just daydream. i want to apply it for USM@pohon but they are not offered the course to the lepasan diploma student. i frusted. but, i choose another course.. hehe.. tough one.. but, i will not tell you. i will tell you about the course that i choose in UPU.

1st : Engineering (Petroleum) UTM
2nd: Chemical Engineering UTM
3rd: Engineering (Chemistry-Gas) UTM
4th: Engineering (Bio-Kimia) UKM

Hmm.. i like engineering so much because my majors are chemistry and physics. I love these subjects so much. About the job opportunities, i think there are a lot job offers outside. I choose Petroleum for my first course because i really wanted to work with oil company like Shell or Petronas. Hehe.. Bha.. thanks for all the help. Lastly, More care less hate!!

Bye Bye Pharmacy!!

Hmm.. finally, i have to give up for taking pharmacy as my course when i intended to enter USM. Before this, someone told me that i should took Pharmacy because it is one of the critical course and ensured JPA scholarship. But, at last i had to forget my mission for pharmacy because some several reasons. first, my MUET was not enough for me to applying for the course. Then, we have to attend an interview and it is not confirmed if USM will offer us the course. That why i have to give up on this. Huhu.. these really made be a bit dissapointed. but, life must go on!! Chayyo!! Fighting!! Ajja!! hehe..

So, i decided to take my second choice.. Chemical engineering. i really want to take this course since my major courses are chemistry and physics. I love these subjects so much!! but, there was too many engineers in Malaysia. That why we have to study well and competence with the others. Finally, have to ended up with engineering. Maybe i should applying for petroleum too. i like to work in oil company, Shell or Petronas perhaps? I will apply for UTM, Johor. Wish me good luck!! LOve u all. LAstly, More care less hate!!