Wednesday, December 30, 2009

December 31, 2009

Today is the last day for this year, 2009. I felt so sad want to leave this year actually because there are many amazing things happen to me this year. But, there's also sad moments that also happened to me. Ya, this year seems like a roller coaster emotion for me. Also, this blog will be the last post for 2009 because about in half day, we are going to celebrate 2010. With the coming of 2010, it means that I'm growing up and I am 21 years old. Not happy actually with the number because 21 seems old enough and I have to change my characters to be more mature, not childish. Anyway, let's hope the best thing will happen for the next coming of 2010. I'm writing this blog because I just want you guys and gals to know what are the amazing things that has happened to me this year recently and I also want to encourage you to do the same thing for your blog.

Ya, I have to admit that December is so amazing month of this year because first, Sime Darby and second, Educamp in UTP. You know, although the sime darby interview is the hardest part ever in my life, I still have to think positive about it and take it as a great experience for me to gain more confident and being more friendly to anyone. Sime darby interview also taught me a lot to be more independent, just say what you believe and no more shyness. It also pushed me to the limit so that I can reach the boundaries that has separated me from achieving my dream. And I'm so graceful for that awesome sime darby interview although I don't think I will shortlisted for the last stage. Never mind because the most important thing is I enjoyed that moment. Next, also taught me a lot is educamp in UTP. I have told you about this educamp in my latest blog ( only if you care to read it ). I just found out that Educamp is freaking aweosme because I learn a lot from there although it was hard for me for the first time because I have to take bus from Shah Alam to Ipoh by myself, ask people for direction and sleep at the Bus Station. Ya, it's a bit scary and actually, that was not me who used to be like someone that will asked for direction, take bus to Ipoh by my own because usually I need someone to company to go to UTP. But, luckily, I did it my myself and it's good enough to show that I'm starting to be more independent. Educamp is awesome because we have quizzes about math and science, interview like MUET exam, meet new friends and guess what? I think it was only me that from sabah. But, it's okay because I learn to adapt new environment and new friends.

Another thing is about my MUET. It's just okay since I've got Band 3 for that exam and it was amazing for me because after working hard for almost 1 month, I think so, finally, I don't have to re-sit MUET exam again although I have low mark for listening and speaking sections. Never mind because I am weak on this sections. Anyway, thanks god for making me pass this exam although I have to learn all by myself and luckily, I have improved my english. Thanks god.

Also, we get new member in ourfamily. His name is Mohd. dhiyaulhaq and damn, he is so cute! Love him so much and just now, I missed him a lot because I think it has been one month I didn't kiss or talk to him. Maybe at this moment he's know how to crawl and I hope I can meet him before he started to learn walk. Anyway, just want to say welcome to our family, Ulhaq.

However, what I want to make this year, I want to study seem like only a daydream because this year 2009, I still not pecede my study yet and it was so sad because I can't achieve my dream to pursue my study in University. So sad. Anyway, I can't stop from hoping because I know there will be a light at the end of the road and what I have to do is just hoping and do my best. You can do it, Rosly..

That's all for 2009 and I'm welcoming 2010 and I hope this year, everything will be right just for me and Happy New Year my friends..

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Educamp in UTP (20-21 december 2009)

I'm gonna tell you the story of my experience when I'm traveling to Perak by myself. It's quite scary experience because I have to do all the things by myself. Form that, I learn to be independent. So, I took bus to Medan Gopeng Station Bus which is located in Ipoh, Perak. So, I arrived at there about 2.00am and the bus sent me to the bus stop not the bus station. What the heck. So, while I'm still blur and just woke up, I just sat at the bus stop and don't know what should I do. I'm afraid because it's already 2.00am and fortunately, there are still few people around the bus stop. I took decision to stay in a hotel which I saw just across the road and in front me but unfortunately, it's full. So, with my heavy bags, I went back to the bus stop and sit for about 15 minutes because I don't know what I should I do. I don't have any idea where I am and where I will sleep for that night. I told myself that I should ask anyone to show me the direction to the Medan Gopeng Station Bus because i'm sure I can sleep at there. But, due to my shyness I'm afraid and shy to ask for direction. After thinking for a while, I told myself till when do I have to let my shyness stop me from asking? So, with taking brave step, I asked a woman and has baby on her arm toa sk for that staion bus. Luckily, she know that place and she told me that I should just go straight that way and I will find it. Thanks to that woman for showing me the direction. So, I pick my bags and go to the bus statioan and manage to find the place. After I arrived at there and found out that I felt safe because people are still awake. I try to find surau but when I managed to find it, it's closed. After that, I go to the chairs at the place nd trying to sleep. But, I just really sleep only 2 hours for that whole night because my back and neck are hurt. Damn!

In the morning, I met a friend and guess what? I'm the first one who started the talking because it was not me that always start talking with people. I would rather to keep quiet all the time and let people ask me. The bus arrived in 7.00am and it's still dark, It it were in Tawau, it's already bright day. Then, the bus brought us to Tronoh where UTP is located. I think the journey took about 30 minutes. I take a nap in the bus because I'm so sleepy. First impression of UTP; quite beautiful, nice and I want to study here. I think we're late because there are many people already at there. We're registered and I met my roomate, Ahmad Firdaus who is SPM leaver. Then, we started introduced ourself and we became so closed because the similarty between me and him,we don't know anyone from the educamp. I'm so lucky to know him. After we found our room, we have to go to the main hall where we have to take bus to go to that place. Again, the main hall is awesome with library at his side. The library is so awesome but we didn't enter it yet. Damn it. After we enter the the main hall, the place in super duper awesome and I think it's quite big and I don't know how much people can be put in the main hall. It's just awesome. F**k. Hence, we're giving about the brief or Petronas and UTP. There are also 1400 aplliant but only 700 persons luckily to join this educamp. But, only 571 only manage to came at all which only 500 students only will be sorted into UTP and I am hoping that I am the one of the 500 luckiest person to enter this amazing UTP.

After finished with the boring briefing, we took lunch and the faci told us that we have two tests for this evening. I was shocked because it was too early. Then, we're go back to the out room and rest for this evening test. So, we are waiting outside the exam hall and this waiting just remind me of my KML moment. It's just like us, matriculation students waiting outside the hall for taking the exam and I just realize that I missed matric life so much. After longer waiting, we took our first paper. It was English Placement Test. It's quite easy because just objective questions and we have to answer 50 questions in 1 hour only. But, I finished it earlier and feel sleepy during the test because english is suck. Then, we took a break for 15 minutes and sat for the next test and it was mathemathic and science test. Damn!! The test is combination between chemistry, physics and additional math questions for SPM. S**t! I already forget what I learn three years ago but fortunately, I still remember what I learn in matric. Thank god for that. But, I don't know if I still answer them correct. But guess what? it's about the time and we have 40 questions and again, one hour only. But I think I do well on this test. After the test, we go back to our room and sleep.

In the night, we have talk which I found the most boring moment in this educamp. But I just found out that almost 65% of the participants of this educamp want chemical engineering. Wow, it was really shock me and I already know that because many people more tend to take chemical engineering. I choose Petroleum engineering because this is what I want. I want to work with oila nd gas company and I know UTP can achieve my dream. From my observation, only 10% student want to take petroleum engineering. After the talk, we went outside and take alook of the list because we have interview sesion for tomorrow and I was in the last group E-10-2. After that, we go back to our room and sleep.

In the next morning, I wake up and felt so nervous because today is the day where we have interview. It will be handle like MUET test and luckily, I have experience on this stuff, Our session only will start in 2.00pm and we have a lot time to prepare. Fortunately, my roomate and me got the same group E but he was in different group. We have individual and group discussion for that ibnterview. Our topic for that day is Aid. It's so hard and I hardly understand the topic. But, I just focus and started to write my points. For my individual presentation, I've the aid shouldn't need a formal request and what should government do? So, when I'm walking to the room,Ifelt so nervous and luckily my interviewers, they are so nice. First, they asked me why I choose UTP and what course did I want to attend. After that, I started to explain my points and the woman asked me questions and I was very happy because i can hear what she said tome and I can answer it. Again, thanks God. But, I think I'm doing it bad during the group discussion but what I know just said what I think is correct. Fuh, I felt relievd after the interview and I am packing my bag again to go to Putrajaya and I follow my friend to go back to Shah Alam. I arrived here about 12.00am and it was very tired day.

Hmm.. I think it is the longest blog i wrote and I felt satisfied with the educamp and I am hoping that I will sorted into UTP. I really want this so badly because I need to study this year and I have to forget about study and start thinking for another option, working. Anyway, all the best from me and let's just hoping for the best! Good luck, Rosly!!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Educamp at UTP

Ya!! I'm going to attend Educamp held by Universiti Teknologi Petronas this 20 and 21 December 2009. I am very excited about this because I really want to pay a visit to there. Again, it sound fascinating and I hope so. But, what I just afraid is I'm going to Tronoh, maybe by myself and I never went to Perak. So, there will be two days camp and from my research, it's not camping actually because camping usually related to tent, sleep outside and etc. We're going to attend the seminar, answer the tests that given and attend interview. We have to do so because they want to choose the best candidates to study at UTP and for the scholarship too. That means UTP will be my third interview because the first one is Shell and second is Sime Darby. Just today, I still not accept any reply from Sime Darby but I know that I am failed to get the scholarship. What I have to do is just forget it ( already forget about it ) and be prepare well for UTP. One of my ultimate gola in my life is I want to work with big company and using my talents for the development of the company and country with achieving the company's ultimate goal. That's what I want most in my life and also the simple one, make my family proud and happy with me by providing them with happy life like they want to. So, all the best for me and I hope I can do at UTP much better. Good luck Rosly!!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Stage 3.. I'm done..

Well, just later. It was on of the hardest part in my life that I have ever experienced. It's so hard till I've got headache after that. I'm done with interview. I woke up about 8.30pm and my uncle already here to pick me up but I'm still not take shower yet. So I thought, why did we have to go at 8.30am and my interview will only start about 11.30am? Haha. It's ridiculous. He pick me up early because he didn't know where is the Grand Dorsett Hotel actually. So, after take a shower and breakfast, we're trying to find that place. After almost 30 minutes and asked few people, we took decision to take for a cab to send us to that place. So, I arrived about 10.45am and I met new friend, Nabilah. He was from same session of online assessment with me. So, we are waiting for the other candidates to finish. By the way, we get to know each other and I remember their names. For the session two, they have seven candidates included me. They are Ken, Joanne, Nabilah, Farhan, Angela, Alex and me. I think it was only me who came from Sabah. While we are waiting the session started, we talked and asked the others about age, courses and university. I just a bit like a stone because they speak english fluently. So fast and I can't caught what the topic did they discuss.

We started the first session about 12pm and it was individual presentation. I just want to say that it was the hardest question that I have to answer in my life. I think I would rather to answer physics question because business management is not what I expert on. I just trying to think positively and I have to do this. I only have 30 minutes to prepare ( which I think it's not enough) and 15 minutes to present. Then, the assessor asked me about the presentation that I made. Hopefully, I did my best and I know that I stucked during the presentation. I am too nervous. The question is about Natural Healthcare. They give us information about the company, the findings and many more. They asked me to find out what they most significant findings that bring to success of the nature healthcare, way to overcome the weakness for the company and plan for the next 1-2 years for the company to develop. I started to present and finish.

After that, we have a break and we went to lunch ( but i didn't lunch because I'm not hungry yet ) and go to prayer. Next is our second assessment. It is group discussion. All of us ( 7 persons ) going to discuss with 7 assessors behind us (it felt so awkard) about which one company should be close. I just dissapointed with myself in this group discussion because I didn't talk a lot. I'm just trying to hear what they said but I can't because they talked too fast just like Haniey ( a friend from KML ). It is about 30 minutes and we're done.

Final assessment is about roleplay. I have to persuaded a person to work back my company in Kuala Lumpur.I hate this part because I'm not a good at acting. So, I used perhaps about 15 minutes to persuaded this person and it's finished!

All in all, what I just want to say is I need to learn english again and I want to learn how to speak clearly and fastly. I still have some things to improve and I don't know if I will shortlist for the final stage. Beside that, I want to say my opinion here. I am applying for engineering but why all the assessments are about the business? The questions should be change due to the different course. Example for the engineering student, they can give us a few products that related to engineering stuff and choose which one which will bring profit to the company. I want something that related to engineering. I just said my opinion here. Sorry. OK. I'm finished and just hoping for the best for me.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Fifteen by Taylor Swift, online assessment and UTP..

While typing down, I just listened to Taylor Swift song, Fifteen. Just another beauty song but I love the most is The Best Day. That song really cool and can make you tear drops when you're just listened to it. I hope I will have the best day with my dad and seem like it's too late because we're just not too close as the son and dad should look alike. Actually, what I just want to say is I miss my family. I miss my mom, dad and sis. I don't know when I will be back.

About few days ago, I just attend online assessment with Sime Darby. The online assessment separately into three parts and the first part is Verbally. We are given few passages to read and have to choose which two statements are correct. It's quite hard question because when you read all the option answers, the answers seem correct. But, it's just tacky question and we have to answer about 24 questions and guess what? We only have 20 minutes to finish that verbal question. I didn't manage to answer all the questions because lack of time and I'm pretty sure that the other candidates also didn't finish it. After verbal, we have mathematic quiz. Also 24 questions and 20 minutes to finished it. It's so ridiculous because how possible you cab answer mathematic questions less than one minutes for each question? *except you're genius* and guess what? I didn't finish it because again, the same reason time. Anyway, I was satisfied with mathematic than verbal because I think mathematics is easy than the verbally. The last test is personality test. It's just easy because there are no correct or not answer in it. We have to answer that question based on our personality. Strongly agree, agree, neutral, disagree and strongly disagree. Just choose either one. It's about 300 questions and heck, my neck was hurt during the personality test. I thought there will be group discussion about the current topic because before this, I checked on web and found out that there will be two tests, group discussion and online assessm,ent. So, today I'm just waiting for the result and I just hoped that I will call for the next stage. I hope I can do it.

Next, I am stupid because it is only 2 days left before the admission is closed. I really want to apply for UTM ( universiti teknologi petronas) which I really wanted to study about petroleum engineering. Yesterday is the last day for online application and fortunately, I can submit my form before the end of online application. But, I am wondered. Why do we have to send our form and certificates after fill up our application online? It's not easy because we have to send it manually before 14th december and today is 11 december and I'm still not send my form yet. I just hoping that I can send my form today and today, I have a lot things to do. I have to go to CIMB bank to pay RM20 for the UTP's fees, and send it using Pos Laju. I must do it today or NEVER!!

Lastly, I will update more.. See you again next time..

Saturday, December 5, 2009

before I'm leaving..

Just like what I said, I'm going to KL today and perrhaps, for this time, this post will be the last post that I write before I'm leaving. I just wake up from a nap and the first thing that I want to do is facebooking*I'm addicted to facebook* and update my blogspot before I leave. So, about few hours, I leave this small town which give me a lot experiences. Sorry, I just feel the way I write like I'm not coming back here. Actually the situation is I just don't know when I will be back home. Only god will know when I will be back to here. Maybe next month, next year or NEVER.. Just leave it to God and what I have to do is just enjoy this experience. I already told Sue and Dewi that I'm leaving, just sadly they didn't give any wish for me. I don't know what happen actually. I felt so sad with them. But, they're just human being and I just to forgot it because maybe they have problem that can't be negletted. I just keep saying this to me. But, I will sms them again before I leave and I'm hoping their response. Only that I can say about.

Just yesterday, Shikin and me, ya only both of us who only watch New Moon because our friends are planning want to watch that movie together. Unfortunately, only Shikin and me that are coming to the cinema. Actually, I don't care if they came or not because I really want to watch that movie since 26 November. New Moon is only available just two days ago and it's suck. Never mind because I have watched it. It's just awesome as me, hehe, actually like Twilight. But, if I have to choose between Twilight and New Moon, I will just choose Twilight because usually, first movie make frist impression. About New Moon, it just awesome and fun. The ending just funny because Edward just said, "Marry me, Bella". The end. Only that. What I was hoping actually Edward bites Bella, so that Bella can be like them someday. But, I just think that Jacob should end up with Bella because they are just perfct for each other. OMG! I confessed that I am a big fan of Twilight Saga and I hope I can read the books. It's just I don't have free time to read it but I will try it.

Just wondering, if you have to choose, what do you want to be? Vampire or Wolf? Vampire is just cold,emo, and sparkling. Wolf is hot, friendly and muscle. So, which one you want to be?I will just I want to be wolf because vampire is just too pale and sparkling and I don't like that. Ya, before I wacthed New Moon and I only have Twilight in my mind, I really want to be a vampire because Jacob characther isn't attract me at all because of lack appearance in that movie and his long hair. Jacob's long hair is so suck. In New Moon, he cut it and he is so cute with his muscle body. So, what say you? What do you want to be??

OK. I'm leaving this town at 9.05pm and just wish and pray for me. I will do my best there and not make my parents dissapointed with me because I don't want to. Bye, again this is the last post I'm here.. Good Bye Tawau, I'll miss you.. *crying* *endaklah bha aku sampai nangis gitu tapi hiba bha mau tinggalkan family ku yang tersayang*

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

5th december 2009

ya, friends.. Like I've told you before this in facebook, I'm leaving Tawau this 5 december.. It's only three days left here and I don't know what I'm supposed to do to enjoy my last time here. But, I really wanted to do is I want to watch New Moon which I have waiting for since 26 Nov and guess what? New Moon isn't available yet in Tawau and it's already 3rd december. I know.. It's suck!! and I'm hoping that I can watch it today or tomorrow. I wanted to watch it before I'm leaving Tawau bha..

First of all, I'm going to KL because I want to attend interview for undergraduate scholarship by Sime Darby. Actually, it is the second stage and it's about online test and verbal. I have made some research about how will the interview take place. Just like I've found out in internet, we'll have verbal tets which is like MUET test and I'm not good in speaking but I will try my best. The assessor will give us a topic where there will be four person and we have to discuss about the topic that given. It's not quite hard because I have experienced it before this. It's just exactly like MUET test. After the verbal test, we have to attend online assesment which will have us to answer the question with computer. we will be test about numbers and personality. I guess it's what the stage no. 2 looks alike. If I success this stage, there will be stage no. 3 which is I think the hardest part of interview. It's kinda face-to-face interview, group discussion and roleplaying*and I hate roleplaying so much because i'm not good in roleplaying*. But, I iwll try my best during the interview. Good luck for me.

Then, I'm planning to do the walk-in interview to the UITM because I really want to precede my study as soon as possible. So, it's my side-plan. Just, I will ask my auntie to help me with this walk-in interview. I know UITM is not my type of University that I want, but I really can't pick which University I want to. It's not matter where you study, whether it in good ranking university or not, but, it's how you will make it for you to success.

Next, I'm also planning to work if I didn't place myself in UITM. I just want to earn and save some money for me to precede my study. Just want to gain some work experience and it will help me to improve my confident and communication skills.

So, it's all about my plan to KL and I hope I can make it and what I want most is I want to get the scholarship. I didn't put too much hope on this scholarship but I take it as precious experience and hope I will get it. Amin.