Dissapointed..

Well, I just finished my exam MUET and I think I didn't do my best. Hmm.. Let me tell you what has happened today.

For the paper reading, I really don't like the passages because it's quite hard to understand. Then, I don't have enough time to read again and checked my answer. But, I hope I can score for that paper.

Next, for the writing paper and the issue here is I don't have enough time. Ahhhh!! Guess what? For the question 1, we have to elaborate two graphs in 150-200 words and I spent about 50 minutes on this. It's really big mistake because I only have 40 minutes for question 2. Again, I don't have enough time to plan for my introduction and conclusion. So, I just plan my points. Let me tell you what the question about. The question : ICT is a cause for many social ills. Agree or not? My opinion? Disagree.. Haha.. Again, when the time is finished, I'm just finished writing my conclusion. What the heck. I hope I have enough time to write out my draft and essay.

Plus, my listening paper. OMG! I can't hear any words when the player was playing. The volume was too slow and I can't hear it well. It's one of my biggest weakness. I'm trying to listen but at last, I can't hear it. So, I just write based on logic for the subjective questions and for objective questions, I tried to take a look at someone paper and sorry, i'm cheated in exam. But, I have to do this or I will repeat again this MUET paper.

My next paper is 12nd may 2009 nad I hope I can speak coherently and clearly. All the best for me and welcome home to my friends!! Happy holiday to you and I have been in mood of holiday since April 2008. It's suck!! Hehe..

I'm nervous..

I just want to mention here.. Right now, I am listening to the song Kristy, are you doing okay by the offspring. I like this song so much and it just remind me to the song Hey There Delilah by The Plain T's.

Well, back to the thing what I'm nervous. Ya, this saturday. I'm going to take the test gaian. For the second time. It's quite embarrassed because I have to re-sit the exam again because I didn't score well on the first exam. Not all my friends know that I'm going to take MUET again this year because I scored band 2 before this.

Start from the last year, I have been studying about English. That's why I'm writing my blogs in English. I have to do this, so that I can improve. 2 days till the day. I'm nervous, again because one week before the day, I don't know what to do else. I just waste my time with sleep, eat, watch TV and online.

Nah, this April I have become sleep-addicted and I don't know why. Anyway, I hope I will do well on this exam and score the band that I want or I have to repeat it again for the third times. Hmm... I think I don't have problem because my grammar, writing and speaking really improved compared to the last year.

But, the thing that I still don't fix is my listening. Haha.. I'm a half-deaf (I can't hear well from my left ear) that's why I can't score in listening paper. But, I will try.

Anyway Rosly, good luck for the exam and I want to say good luck to my friends too who will or already take their exam start from this month. Good Luck everybody!!

the phone interview..

Huh.. Finally, I'm so glad because I have attended the interview and I want to finish it as soon as possible. The interviewer called me about 2pm and I have been waiting in a private room in my home about 1.45pm. I'm so nervous and excited because I'm afraid if I can't answer she about what she asked me about and this is the first interview in my life. I hope I have done my best because I want this scholarship badly. She told me that the interview will took time about 45-60 minutes but the actual thing is she interview me for about 1 hour and 30 minutes. It such a long time and I'm so tired after the interview. Almost the question that she asked me is about my achievement. It's so hard because I don't have enough time to think my answer and I just think the first thing that came to my mind. Guess what? When she asked me about my achievement, I just thought about The Amazing Race in matrix that I join. I don't know what to answer else. What the heck!! haha.. Then, she asked me about my next achievement and I just think about my english assignment in LMC> Haha.. I don't know what to else. Hmm.. After that, she gave me four topics and I have to choose which one I want to elaborate. I choose the last topic because it is the only topic that I can hear the whole sentences. She asked me to elaborate about how the internet affected the business? Haha.. I'm keep talking and I just want to finish it. Lastly, the interview ends. I hope I will make it and shortlist for the next interview. I hope i will make it!! What I can say? This is my very first interview and I'm felt so lucky because I have the chance.. Thank you..

Finally..

Finally, the sun shines for me for the time of my life. I can fell the light and warm. It heat me so much and this is what I need in my life. A chance for me to prove to them that I'm the most eligible person that they have been looking for. However, I'm still not sure if I will attend the interview because my family seem like don't want me to attend the interview. Because of their skeptical thought, that I will waste my parents' money only if I don't shortlist as the successful candidate. Yeah, I know there will be winner and loser in the game but before that, I should give it a try. Maybe it'll change my life at all. I don't afraid for the outcome but at least, I give it a try.

Just like the song of David Cook, 'the time of my life', that's song is really fix with me so much. Because I have been waiting for this dream, something that impossible to do but I will just try it and give my best. Now, I can feel my world start to turn because for the chance that they give me. Not only that, but the song by Miley Cyrus also fix with me because the lyrics. I almost can see it, of course my dream. But, there's a voice inside my head that I'll never reach it because of my weakness. For every seconds in my life, I have thought that it's impossible. Hmm.. I don't know but I will give it a try and give my best again for that day again. I want to say thank you so much for the chance that they give to me and I appreciated it!! Thanks!!

Give up!!

Huh? Who is the laziest person in the world? For this moment, I would say myself. Ahh.. I'm the laziest person in the world and i don't know what's wrong with me. Everyday, I felt so tired until I can't study and prepare for the coming exam. I have my plan on what I should do due to the date but I don't follow it well. When I felt like I want to do it, I will. But, if I'm in bad mood.. Now way I will study.. I will just surf the net and watch TV. What the heck with me? I hope someone will help me and give me support because I felt like I want to gave up. I have many things to gave up. I'm so tired to think about my chance to precede my study in higher education. I can't hold this anymore. Sometimes, I have been thinking that I won't precede my study this year and maybe I won't precede my study anymore. What stucked in my mind was I just want to work and earn money. Build new life and make my parents happy with me, not suffer. I also has gave up with my ID card. I have been wait for 8 months and I still don't have any response from them. I don't know if I can wait for it anymore but I felt so tired. I think I can wait, but till when do I have to wait? 2010? OMG!! It's so suck. I don't know what elso to do anymore. Then, I felt gave up too with my scholarships. I don't care about it anymore. I just have applied for seven scholarships and I have rejected by three scholarships. I'm trying to say to myself that I will get one scholarship at least but sometimes I think I won't. This is due to the same problem that I have faced since I was form . Ohh.. It's has been 7 years I still don't settle my problem. With all these problems, its gave me effect to my preparation to study. I'm going to take the exam on 25th april and I still haven't study anything yet. At this moment, I need anyone who can help me. Give me moral support please!! I don't know what else to do. I felt like there's no need for me to do well in my exam because perhaps I won't precede my study at all. Sometimes, we have to give up on dreams, so that we can looking for another dreams. I have to gave up on my ID card, precede my study and scholarship because I have new dream.. That is because I want to make my family happy with me. I know it's only me have the chance to change my family situation but there are a lot ways I can do that. Not only precede my study will make they happy with me, but I will try looking for permanent job and working for all my life until I can earn my money and give it to my parents. Hmm.. I know I shouldn't sigh about my fate but sometimes, you have to know when to forget and give up in your dreams because you won' make it eventhough you have try your best. but, this doesn't mean that my hope will end here but the actual thing is, there are new chances coming after me and I just have to put my effort and looking for it. I know there will be something for me. I know it was God the biggest plan for me but I have no idea what it is about. So, what I have to do just looking for it on the horizon, magic rainbow. Anyway, I'm looking toward for the new life!!

Earth Hour? Didn't work..

At 8.30pm, people around the Malaysia have switched the lights till 9.30pm at 28/03/2009. But, there are still few people who don't care about this campaign. I really excited about this Earth Hour and really want to support. Unfortunately, I think I just switch off the lights about 30%. My auntie told me not to switch off the lights because it was not important. She told me to look around and no one our neighbour did switch off the lights. Anyway, I just tried to switch off the lights as much as I can to save our Earth from global warming. Anyway, Go for our earth!!

new member..

We have new family member and I'm so happy about it. My auntie, Kak Ros has safe giving to birth a boy two days ago. He was born in 25/3/2009. Before that date, she went to Hospital at 24/3/2009 and her husband tell us that his wife sent to hospital. When he told us the news, I was so excited and happy. I felt like it was my wife and she is going to give birth. I'm so happy and excited too!! Finally, the baby was born at 1pm ( I don't know the exactly time but it almost 1pm) at 25/3/2009. He is so cute and beauty. It's so amazing. The combination of sperm and ovum produce the baby. Oh, it's so amazing and awesome.

Ovum + Sperm = Baby

But, till today.. he doesn't has name. His parents still don't decided what name want to give but I want his name.. Mohd Ashraff Dhianshah. I think they will choose another name but never mind, I will keep this name for my son. Haha.. I'm already have a name for my son. This is so funny. Ok. Stop. Here is his pics.

He is so cute right? At this moment, he is 3 days. OMG!! He is so cute and keep mesmerized me!! Bye.. Lastly, more care less hate!!