As for now, I have three posts including this one for January 2016. So basically, what should I do for me to keep post and have 100 posts by the end of December 2016?
It is easier and let's have 100 posts divided by 12 months, and roughly - I have to write about 8 1/3 posts every month and lets make it about 9 posts per month. Then, it is achievable but can be challenging because I do write and preferable to have it hand written.
But, lets do it and write!
Sunday, January 10, 2016
Saturday, January 9, 2016
Wednesday, January 6, 2016
In Occasion or If I Have To
Yesterday, I went to the clinic to drive my client because he had this pain on her waist. After checked and injected by the doc, I have a little chat with Dr Neena and she knows me because her clinic is our clinic panel for the company I worked for. I always have a book with me, so in case I feel bored of waiting, I can read to kill time and yesterday, I bring along a classic one, "To Kill a Mocking Bird by Harper Lee" and Dr Neena seemed to noticed and interested with my book. She asked me, if she can take a look at that book and she said, this one - I have read it when I was your age. Very good one, very classic.
Then, she give me another advice. Since you are read English book, you need to speak in English Very good for you. She said this because every time I met her for appointment, I tend to speak Malay with her. It is just me, that I use English when I write but when it come to speak in English, only in occasion or when I have to. This is the kind of mindset that I need to change, I really need to. I really need to familiarize myself with this because inshaALLAH, I will need to use English starting from September this year, if not - I will not survive in the new place at all. But, I am closer to my biggest dream ever. =)
Then, she give me another advice. Since you are read English book, you need to speak in English Very good for you. She said this because every time I met her for appointment, I tend to speak Malay with her. It is just me, that I use English when I write but when it come to speak in English, only in occasion or when I have to. This is the kind of mindset that I need to change, I really need to. I really need to familiarize myself with this because inshaALLAH, I will need to use English starting from September this year, if not - I will not survive in the new place at all. But, I am closer to my biggest dream ever. =)
Friday, December 11, 2015
Let's have some fun!
I am back. As promised to a friend of mine, I will post something.
Last month, I just got offered from a friend of my auntie to do his assignments, chemistry and physics. I am pretty stoked and quite worried if I have enough time to complete these assignments because I am committed to my work. But, I just take it and I can make some extra money, on the other side.
There, I realized what I love the most. I really love to study and doing assignments. It is what I do the best. To keep reminiscing about what I have learnt in the past, bring back a warm feeling in my heart. It is just something that I wish I am doing right now. Then, last week - my cousin asked for my help in her chemistry matriculation assignment and I am more than happy to help her.
So, what did I do? I am not saying that I don't love my job in Yokogawa as Solution Engineer but from what I evaluated myself, I am not using my fully potential here. It is not even close to 50% I told you but I need to do something. Then, I decided to try a new hobby which is photography. I bought fujifilm xt10 last year - just an investment for me and try few things and it is good. It can help me to sway and deliver between my job and hobby. It is nice to do something apart of my engineer job.
But, another thing is - I am already accepted to University of Manchester for Master of Advanced Chemical Engineering with conditional offer - I can waived the IELTS exam with my English 1119, InshaALLAH. The hardest part is looking for the scholarship and I am still looking there and there, trying my best to pursuit for my happiness and for thing that I can do the best and interest me.
Don't dream it, be it! Chase after your happiness. You only live once. Make it worth. :)
**Just some pictures I captured today at Pantai Kemasik, such a beautiful beach.
Maybe I should try to be a professional photographer someday. Maybe I can try for National Geographic and apply. Who knows where will it might lead me. Someday.
Last month, I just got offered from a friend of my auntie to do his assignments, chemistry and physics. I am pretty stoked and quite worried if I have enough time to complete these assignments because I am committed to my work. But, I just take it and I can make some extra money, on the other side.
There, I realized what I love the most. I really love to study and doing assignments. It is what I do the best. To keep reminiscing about what I have learnt in the past, bring back a warm feeling in my heart. It is just something that I wish I am doing right now. Then, last week - my cousin asked for my help in her chemistry matriculation assignment and I am more than happy to help her.
So, what did I do? I am not saying that I don't love my job in Yokogawa as Solution Engineer but from what I evaluated myself, I am not using my fully potential here. It is not even close to 50% I told you but I need to do something. Then, I decided to try a new hobby which is photography. I bought fujifilm xt10 last year - just an investment for me and try few things and it is good. It can help me to sway and deliver between my job and hobby. It is nice to do something apart of my engineer job.
But, another thing is - I am already accepted to University of Manchester for Master of Advanced Chemical Engineering with conditional offer - I can waived the IELTS exam with my English 1119, InshaALLAH. The hardest part is looking for the scholarship and I am still looking there and there, trying my best to pursuit for my happiness and for thing that I can do the best and interest me.
Don't dream it, be it! Chase after your happiness. You only live once. Make it worth. :)
**Just some pictures I captured today at Pantai Kemasik, such a beautiful beach.
Maybe I should try to be a professional photographer someday. Maybe I can try for National Geographic and apply. Who knows where will it might lead me. Someday.
Sunday, July 26, 2015
My version of Love Letters to the Dead
Dear Grandma,
I miss you so much. I did not have the chance to spent a lot of time with you. It is one of my biggest regret. Allah do love you more than us. Tonight, I am thinking of write a letter to you. I just miss you. I really miss you. I really do.
I really wish that I can spent more time with you. It is a great big deal for me to have someone to talk to because I believe that you have a lot experience in your life. During the hardness of your life, I know that you have a very hard life. From Indonesia, travel to Malaysia for a new dream and hope. However, when I was Form 1, we got the bad news. Our relatives from Indonesia told us that you have passed away. I still remember that day. My mother, uncle and auntie - all of them crying and can't believe when you are gone. I was a kid, 13 years old - I do understand the pain.
I wish for you and me to spent the time together. Honestly, I have never feel a love from a grandma. I wish to have played with you. Like how Rayqarl plays with my mom. It is a beautiful sight that I will never feel it. I have one picture, only one picture which show me and you during my birthday. With you old clothes, and your eyes - I just realized that you looks like terrified of something. Sad and I can't explain it.
Only if we have the time together, I will be asking about your life. I am more interested with you life and how well you are doing. Life is so hard, I know it from just seeing it but I believe that you have achieved whatever is your goal. Unfortunately, you are not able to see me growing up. To become a man like today. Only if we have some time to spare. But still, it is one of the best experience I have with you grandma.
I love you grandma. I miss you and I really do. Al-Fatihah to my beloved grandma, and you will always in my heart, forever.
I miss you so much. I did not have the chance to spent a lot of time with you. It is one of my biggest regret. Allah do love you more than us. Tonight, I am thinking of write a letter to you. I just miss you. I really miss you. I really do.
I really wish that I can spent more time with you. It is a great big deal for me to have someone to talk to because I believe that you have a lot experience in your life. During the hardness of your life, I know that you have a very hard life. From Indonesia, travel to Malaysia for a new dream and hope. However, when I was Form 1, we got the bad news. Our relatives from Indonesia told us that you have passed away. I still remember that day. My mother, uncle and auntie - all of them crying and can't believe when you are gone. I was a kid, 13 years old - I do understand the pain.
I wish for you and me to spent the time together. Honestly, I have never feel a love from a grandma. I wish to have played with you. Like how Rayqarl plays with my mom. It is a beautiful sight that I will never feel it. I have one picture, only one picture which show me and you during my birthday. With you old clothes, and your eyes - I just realized that you looks like terrified of something. Sad and I can't explain it.
Only if we have the time together, I will be asking about your life. I am more interested with you life and how well you are doing. Life is so hard, I know it from just seeing it but I believe that you have achieved whatever is your goal. Unfortunately, you are not able to see me growing up. To become a man like today. Only if we have some time to spare. But still, it is one of the best experience I have with you grandma.
I love you grandma. I miss you and I really do. Al-Fatihah to my beloved grandma, and you will always in my heart, forever.
Saturday, July 4, 2015
Page 312
Sometimes when we say things, we hear silence. Or only like echoes. Like screaming from inside. And that's really lonely. But that only happens when we weren't really listening. It means we weren't ready to listen yet. Because everytime we speak, there is a voice. There is the world that answers back (Love letters to the dead, Ava Dellaira)
Friday, July 3, 2015
Love Letters to the Dead vs The Perks of Being a Wallflower
I am just in the middle of reading, a long very long wait in the wish-list book - Love Letters to the Dead by Ava Dellaira. I have been looking for that book like forever. Now, I have the book and almost finished it. I remember it exactly whom did recommended that book. Thanks and it is amazing. But, great deeply - when I read that book- the more I read and immerse myself, the more I feel like I have read a kind of similar book. Yes, it is - The perks of being a wallflower. Also, great book and great movie.
Both of the books - the narrations is quite different from other books that I have read. Like every chapter, it is start with writing letter to someone. Like, Dear you.. Dear someone.. The different of these two books make - one of them using artist as the recipients of the book. Like Amy Winehouse, Janis Joplin, Elizabeth Bishop, Kurt and many more while the others, only using one subject which is dear you. I believe that Charlie is writing the letter to his best friend, who died of shot himself with the gun. The reason, is still unknown because it is not really the main plot of what the writer want to tell in the book.
Another similarity that I found from the books, both of them - have someone special and very close to them - but died of suicide. Laurel is grieving because of the lost of her older sister, and blame herself for the tragic accident and she is the last person who saw her. While in another story, Charlie is losing her auntie Helen which she died because of the car accident. Both of them cant cope with the situation and day by day, things are getting emotional and fortunately, things change for them- which is good.
Just my two cents, how did people cope with the loss of someone who they loved? It is just extremely saddening occasion, because the people you used to talk everyday, and feel her presence - suddenly gone. Forever. To make things worst even, sometimes - there are few things when people are getting attached to any memories - object, place and emotion. Everything is connected and is able to put emotion to the people. How did the cope? Did they learnt day by day to move on?
Just another thing, how does it is possible for a mom or dad - going separately after their daughter die? and leave the other children which is obviously need someone to be closer to them. It is good to grieving and it is the best if we have someone who can rely, who can story together and anybody for depending. So, the only question that I really got through, how does it is happen? I mean, yeah - the parents leave their children to cope all of these by themselves? I will understand it if they are in the mid of 20 or plus, but we are talking about age of 12 and 15, something like that. At this age, everything is so fragile. At this age, you will need someone to depend on, to make role for look forward and suddenly, the parents are not there. Do you see what kind of the problems that the are going to face? How socially affected the children later in the future because they are going to shaped the future but without the guidance of the parents? Do you see what I am talking about?
I guess that is all what I want to share - sometimes, I feel emotional when I am reading books. I take it as a compliment because a good book is a book that can make feel emotional and questioning whatever inside it. Just recently, I am trying to find another books which can help me to read more and more and more because it made me who I am.
Both of the books - the narrations is quite different from other books that I have read. Like every chapter, it is start with writing letter to someone. Like, Dear you.. Dear someone.. The different of these two books make - one of them using artist as the recipients of the book. Like Amy Winehouse, Janis Joplin, Elizabeth Bishop, Kurt and many more while the others, only using one subject which is dear you. I believe that Charlie is writing the letter to his best friend, who died of shot himself with the gun. The reason, is still unknown because it is not really the main plot of what the writer want to tell in the book.
Another similarity that I found from the books, both of them - have someone special and very close to them - but died of suicide. Laurel is grieving because of the lost of her older sister, and blame herself for the tragic accident and she is the last person who saw her. While in another story, Charlie is losing her auntie Helen which she died because of the car accident. Both of them cant cope with the situation and day by day, things are getting emotional and fortunately, things change for them- which is good.
Just my two cents, how did people cope with the loss of someone who they loved? It is just extremely saddening occasion, because the people you used to talk everyday, and feel her presence - suddenly gone. Forever. To make things worst even, sometimes - there are few things when people are getting attached to any memories - object, place and emotion. Everything is connected and is able to put emotion to the people. How did the cope? Did they learnt day by day to move on?
Just another thing, how does it is possible for a mom or dad - going separately after their daughter die? and leave the other children which is obviously need someone to be closer to them. It is good to grieving and it is the best if we have someone who can rely, who can story together and anybody for depending. So, the only question that I really got through, how does it is happen? I mean, yeah - the parents leave their children to cope all of these by themselves? I will understand it if they are in the mid of 20 or plus, but we are talking about age of 12 and 15, something like that. At this age, everything is so fragile. At this age, you will need someone to depend on, to make role for look forward and suddenly, the parents are not there. Do you see what kind of the problems that the are going to face? How socially affected the children later in the future because they are going to shaped the future but without the guidance of the parents? Do you see what I am talking about?
I guess that is all what I want to share - sometimes, I feel emotional when I am reading books. I take it as a compliment because a good book is a book that can make feel emotional and questioning whatever inside it. Just recently, I am trying to find another books which can help me to read more and more and more because it made me who I am.
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