Quizzes, Holiday..

Just today, I've finished two quizzes which is Physical Chem and Differential Equation. Super Duper hard!! Although it was just one question for each courses, but I have to think and re-think especially for the Differential Equations quiz. I've never expected to have a quiz like that. OMG. Need to study more and no more wasting time on stupid stuff. Anyway, have to think positive because at least I did my best bha. I don't say that I do well but I did my best to score the best marks. Haha.. Tomorrow, will be the last day before we're holiday for CNY for five days. Seem like I will be alone again because almost of my friends go home and me, I have to wait till the end of semester one. Never mind because sometime, to achieve something greater in my life, I need to sacrifice for my future life. Chayyo Rosly~ Anyway, I will take this five days to study. No more wasting time Rosly. Always thinking that university life is harder than matrix life and I have to move on because if I don't move, I will left behind. What I'am talking about?? Damn.. Well, UTP is quite beautiful campus and I love my friends here that same course with me, Chemical Engineering. But, what I missed the most is home. Ahhh~ can't wait to go home sweet home, Tawau. Tawau, wait for me because once I reach Tawau, I will go round2 the town. Haha~ Meet my old friends and ABC.. Arrgh!! Cant wait for it. But, I still have four months to go and still have to face final examination. Hmm, never mind. Don't think about that first because I still have a lot time to improve myself. Anyway, Good Luck to me and I really enjoyed life here. Thanks Allah for this chance!!

gym and swim~

Ya, this recently I kept myself busy with physical routines. Actually, this is not what I'm used to be but I made decision that I want to keep healthy for this year. I want to exercise and guess what? I choose swimming and gym. Haha.. I know you're rolled your eyes when you read gym. Haha.. Gym?? I know but actually I don't want to have six pack abs but i just want to exercise actually. Not strong body but at least, I can exercise. You know what? I choose gym because I just joined my friends. about swimming, I really want to swimming and just today, I learn to float myself. It's cool and you know what? I love UTP so much because we have internet access in our own room and it's damn so fast ( of course because we have to pay RM40 for our hostel and it's just for 1 week ). Haha.. Can't wait to see what happen next..

so stressed!!

Hmm, so stressed because apply PTPTN online.. Have many errors.. And I only have few days before the end date of applying PTPTN!! So stress!! Damn!!

new life, new friends and all in all, everything is new..

In case if I'm forgot to tell you guys that curently, I'm studying in Universiti Teknologi Petronas and majoring in Chemical Engineering. What I can say about this place is awesome and cool. I love this place so much. really love it and thanks a lot to Allah for this chance. I'm going to tell you about my experience here. First, what I can say about is all people here speak in English. Haha, majority of them used English because we have a lot international students here that from mostly, African and arab. I hope I can befriend with them because I really want to improve my English so much. I need to improve or I will left behind because all students, they used english in class, lecture and anywhere. Me? sometime.. But, I will do it slowly. Slowly but consistent.



For the first week, I attent the MAS (Minggu Aluan Siswa) and I only managed to attend this MAS on thursday but MAS started few days before thursday. If I'm not mistaken, it's saturday. I just got my offer when it was monday and I only have three days only to prepare for everything and packed my stuff. Luckily, I have friend to come here with him and thanked to him, rasid because he's really helped me a lot here. Helped me with introducing me with some new friends and new place. All in all, for the first week, I depend on him because he know everything.



About my class, ya, for this first year semester one, I only have to take 13 credit hours only and my favorite courses are differential equations and organic chemistry. You know what? My lecturer that teach me Organic Chemistry, ya, he is from Rusia. When he teach in lecture and tutorial, I felt like in foreign country like Rusia with his accent. But, I love that. Hmm, i just quite worried about english so much because almost of the lecturer teach in English. So, I

IDK~

IDK refers to I don't knowand I'm going to write about IDK because I still don't know how's my life going and headed. I just don't know what will happen to me in the future. I really have no idea about my careerm life and family. It's just blank and I have nothing because everyday, I do the same thing over and over again and get sick of it. I need something to change because I'm so tired waiting of it. But, I can't say this normally because it will only just ruined my mood and only let me thinking negative things only. I still have my parents' prayer and I do believe. At this moment, I'm watching Oprah's show and today topic is interesting because she said " don't stop believing". It is what I need and I shouldn't stop believing because I do believe that God has much better plan for me for me. And I hope it's right. Still my life, it's just like that and nothing change. Usually, wake up at 9am( I know it's too late) but what you know, I'm so tired from the yesterday because I have to do the same thing again and again and I'm tired of it. I'm sorry if repetition occurs here but it's just what flow from my mind and I really don't care about my grammar errors. Just this day, I edited my UPU and also, USM and I hope I can precede my study this year. Really hoping that so much because this is the last chance or I am going to GIVE UP. Ya, this time I really mean it. I'm sorry because I have to stop believing and have to looking for another alternative ways for me to improve my life and become success.

That's all for my latest update from me and I have tumblr and I find it's awesome. Join me if you have tumblr.

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what if I die before achieving my dreams? Part 2

Now, I'm going to continue with the topic that I write about. Actually, I just thought about this topic just after when read about my friend blog. It's just so sad and I don't know how many times did I tell you that it was so sad and I will remember the tragedy if I read or hear anything that related to Banggi and Boat tragedy. So, I decided to write a post about this.

I just feel what if I die before I achieving my dream? How will family will face it? I know that I am the one only hope from family and sorry my beloved sis, Kikie I didn't mean to say this but it's the reality, I'm boy and I'm the one that have to bear the responsibility. Because before this I promise myself, that I will make my parents happy and proud of me for giving birth to me. I know that I really want to make you happy and I know I already did that few times but I want more. I want to give you, my parents happiness and the life that we've never feel like before. that's why I want to study badly and do my well. I want to be success boy which will bring happiness to you and I won't make you regret for having son like me. It's just what I want to say about the main goal for my life. But, suddenly I just thought about what if I die before I make them happy? :( will them live the life like nothing happen? Or will they survive without me? I don't know the answer but what I really hoping that is I hope I can make them happy and proud of me.

Ya, almost people know that I want to study more than anyone else. I really want to study and it'sa bout two years I finished matric in Labuan. Just said, what if I die before I am precede my study in university? I think I will be a ghost that will precede my study in UTM and taking Petroleum Engineering and study just like other students do. (just kidding hor..) I need to precede my study as soon as possible or either I will loss interest to study anymore and I don't want that to happen.

You know, just today I checked UITM appeal result and I failed (again and I don't know how much time I failed to place myself in university). But, it's okay because I have the last way to place myself in UITM. What I have to do is to go to UITM and ask if they can put one more place for me. and I hope I can do that. Maybe I will go this monday and Good Luck Rosly, I hope you can make your dream come true..

what if I die before achieving my dreams?

Ya, I know that I shouldn't thinking about that.. It's one of thing(die) that must be faced by us. I didn't like to write or hear anything that related about it because just if I hear someone is die or I read, it's really make me worried and sad about my life. That's why I want to write about this. Just today, I read my friend blog, Jenyfer and thanks to her for sharing the story. It's really make me think about thousand times about the life and death, make me remember my family in Tawau and you know, when I take a walk outside my auntie's home, it's really windy and this again make me feel more sad, so sad.. It's just about the boat tragedy that happen in Banggi and I really don't know about the story. Just after I read the story, then I feel sad from the bottom of my heart and here's the link for you to read. Just be prepare because again, it's so sad and if I were on his shoes, I don't know how I'm going to face it.

http://www.norifpaival.com/2009/12/banggi-tragedy/

Hmm.. I really just don't know what to write else because I'm not in the mood and this story, I don't know.. It's just so sad and make me thinking about what would happen if I didn't achieve my dream?


to be continue..