Stage 3.. I'm done..

Well, just later. It was on of the hardest part in my life that I have ever experienced. It's so hard till I've got headache after that. I'm done with interview. I woke up about 8.30pm and my uncle already here to pick me up but I'm still not take shower yet. So I thought, why did we have to go at 8.30am and my interview will only start about 11.30am? Haha. It's ridiculous. He pick me up early because he didn't know where is the Grand Dorsett Hotel actually. So, after take a shower and breakfast, we're trying to find that place. After almost 30 minutes and asked few people, we took decision to take for a cab to send us to that place. So, I arrived about 10.45am and I met new friend, Nabilah. He was from same session of online assessment with me. So, we are waiting for the other candidates to finish. By the way, we get to know each other and I remember their names. For the session two, they have seven candidates included me. They are Ken, Joanne, Nabilah, Farhan, Angela, Alex and me. I think it was only me who came from Sabah. While we are waiting the session started, we talked and asked the others about age, courses and university. I just a bit like a stone because they speak english fluently. So fast and I can't caught what the topic did they discuss.

We started the first session about 12pm and it was individual presentation. I just want to say that it was the hardest question that I have to answer in my life. I think I would rather to answer physics question because business management is not what I expert on. I just trying to think positively and I have to do this. I only have 30 minutes to prepare ( which I think it's not enough) and 15 minutes to present. Then, the assessor asked me about the presentation that I made. Hopefully, I did my best and I know that I stucked during the presentation. I am too nervous. The question is about Natural Healthcare. They give us information about the company, the findings and many more. They asked me to find out what they most significant findings that bring to success of the nature healthcare, way to overcome the weakness for the company and plan for the next 1-2 years for the company to develop. I started to present and finish.

After that, we have a break and we went to lunch ( but i didn't lunch because I'm not hungry yet ) and go to prayer. Next is our second assessment. It is group discussion. All of us ( 7 persons ) going to discuss with 7 assessors behind us (it felt so awkard) about which one company should be close. I just dissapointed with myself in this group discussion because I didn't talk a lot. I'm just trying to hear what they said but I can't because they talked too fast just like Haniey ( a friend from KML ). It is about 30 minutes and we're done.

Final assessment is about roleplay. I have to persuaded a person to work back my company in Kuala Lumpur.I hate this part because I'm not a good at acting. So, I used perhaps about 15 minutes to persuaded this person and it's finished!

All in all, what I just want to say is I need to learn english again and I want to learn how to speak clearly and fastly. I still have some things to improve and I don't know if I will shortlist for the final stage. Beside that, I want to say my opinion here. I am applying for engineering but why all the assessments are about the business? The questions should be change due to the different course. Example for the engineering student, they can give us a few products that related to engineering stuff and choose which one which will bring profit to the company. I want something that related to engineering. I just said my opinion here. Sorry. OK. I'm finished and just hoping for the best for me.

Fifteen by Taylor Swift, online assessment and UTP..

While typing down, I just listened to Taylor Swift song, Fifteen. Just another beauty song but I love the most is The Best Day. That song really cool and can make you tear drops when you're just listened to it. I hope I will have the best day with my dad and seem like it's too late because we're just not too close as the son and dad should look alike. Actually, what I just want to say is I miss my family. I miss my mom, dad and sis. I don't know when I will be back.

About few days ago, I just attend online assessment with Sime Darby. The online assessment separately into three parts and the first part is Verbally. We are given few passages to read and have to choose which two statements are correct. It's quite hard question because when you read all the option answers, the answers seem correct. But, it's just tacky question and we have to answer about 24 questions and guess what? We only have 20 minutes to finish that verbal question. I didn't manage to answer all the questions because lack of time and I'm pretty sure that the other candidates also didn't finish it. After verbal, we have mathematic quiz. Also 24 questions and 20 minutes to finished it. It's so ridiculous because how possible you cab answer mathematic questions less than one minutes for each question? *except you're genius* and guess what? I didn't finish it because again, the same reason time. Anyway, I was satisfied with mathematic than verbal because I think mathematics is easy than the verbally. The last test is personality test. It's just easy because there are no correct or not answer in it. We have to answer that question based on our personality. Strongly agree, agree, neutral, disagree and strongly disagree. Just choose either one. It's about 300 questions and heck, my neck was hurt during the personality test. I thought there will be group discussion about the current topic because before this, I checked on web and found out that there will be two tests, group discussion and online assessm,ent. So, today I'm just waiting for the result and I just hoped that I will call for the next stage. I hope I can do it.

Next, I am stupid because it is only 2 days left before the admission is closed. I really want to apply for UTM ( universiti teknologi petronas) which I really wanted to study about petroleum engineering. Yesterday is the last day for online application and fortunately, I can submit my form before the end of online application. But, I am wondered. Why do we have to send our form and certificates after fill up our application online? It's not easy because we have to send it manually before 14th december and today is 11 december and I'm still not send my form yet. I just hoping that I can send my form today and today, I have a lot things to do. I have to go to CIMB bank to pay RM20 for the UTP's fees, and send it using Pos Laju. I must do it today or NEVER!!

Lastly, I will update more.. See you again next time..

before I'm leaving..

Just like what I said, I'm going to KL today and perrhaps, for this time, this post will be the last post that I write before I'm leaving. I just wake up from a nap and the first thing that I want to do is facebooking*I'm addicted to facebook* and update my blogspot before I leave. So, about few hours, I leave this small town which give me a lot experiences. Sorry, I just feel the way I write like I'm not coming back here. Actually the situation is I just don't know when I will be back home. Only god will know when I will be back to here. Maybe next month, next year or NEVER.. Just leave it to God and what I have to do is just enjoy this experience. I already told Sue and Dewi that I'm leaving, just sadly they didn't give any wish for me. I don't know what happen actually. I felt so sad with them. But, they're just human being and I just to forgot it because maybe they have problem that can't be negletted. I just keep saying this to me. But, I will sms them again before I leave and I'm hoping their response. Only that I can say about.

Just yesterday, Shikin and me, ya only both of us who only watch New Moon because our friends are planning want to watch that movie together. Unfortunately, only Shikin and me that are coming to the cinema. Actually, I don't care if they came or not because I really want to watch that movie since 26 November. New Moon is only available just two days ago and it's suck. Never mind because I have watched it. It's just awesome as me, hehe, actually like Twilight. But, if I have to choose between Twilight and New Moon, I will just choose Twilight because usually, first movie make frist impression. About New Moon, it just awesome and fun. The ending just funny because Edward just said, "Marry me, Bella". The end. Only that. What I was hoping actually Edward bites Bella, so that Bella can be like them someday. But, I just think that Jacob should end up with Bella because they are just perfct for each other. OMG! I confessed that I am a big fan of Twilight Saga and I hope I can read the books. It's just I don't have free time to read it but I will try it.

Just wondering, if you have to choose, what do you want to be? Vampire or Wolf? Vampire is just cold,emo, and sparkling. Wolf is hot, friendly and muscle. So, which one you want to be?I will just I want to be wolf because vampire is just too pale and sparkling and I don't like that. Ya, before I wacthed New Moon and I only have Twilight in my mind, I really want to be a vampire because Jacob characther isn't attract me at all because of lack appearance in that movie and his long hair. Jacob's long hair is so suck. In New Moon, he cut it and he is so cute with his muscle body. So, what say you? What do you want to be??

OK. I'm leaving this town at 9.05pm and just wish and pray for me. I will do my best there and not make my parents dissapointed with me because I don't want to. Bye, again this is the last post I'm here.. Good Bye Tawau, I'll miss you.. *crying* *endaklah bha aku sampai nangis gitu tapi hiba bha mau tinggalkan family ku yang tersayang*

5th december 2009

ya, friends.. Like I've told you before this in facebook, I'm leaving Tawau this 5 december.. It's only three days left here and I don't know what I'm supposed to do to enjoy my last time here. But, I really wanted to do is I want to watch New Moon which I have waiting for since 26 Nov and guess what? New Moon isn't available yet in Tawau and it's already 3rd december. I know.. It's suck!! and I'm hoping that I can watch it today or tomorrow. I wanted to watch it before I'm leaving Tawau bha..

First of all, I'm going to KL because I want to attend interview for undergraduate scholarship by Sime Darby. Actually, it is the second stage and it's about online test and verbal. I have made some research about how will the interview take place. Just like I've found out in internet, we'll have verbal tets which is like MUET test and I'm not good in speaking but I will try my best. The assessor will give us a topic where there will be four person and we have to discuss about the topic that given. It's not quite hard because I have experienced it before this. It's just exactly like MUET test. After the verbal test, we have to attend online assesment which will have us to answer the question with computer. we will be test about numbers and personality. I guess it's what the stage no. 2 looks alike. If I success this stage, there will be stage no. 3 which is I think the hardest part of interview. It's kinda face-to-face interview, group discussion and roleplaying*and I hate roleplaying so much because i'm not good in roleplaying*. But, I iwll try my best during the interview. Good luck for me.

Then, I'm planning to do the walk-in interview to the UITM because I really want to precede my study as soon as possible. So, it's my side-plan. Just, I will ask my auntie to help me with this walk-in interview. I know UITM is not my type of University that I want, but I really can't pick which University I want to. It's not matter where you study, whether it in good ranking university or not, but, it's how you will make it for you to success.

Next, I'm also planning to work if I didn't place myself in UITM. I just want to earn and save some money for me to precede my study. Just want to gain some work experience and it will help me to improve my confident and communication skills.

So, it's all about my plan to KL and I hope I can make it and what I want most is I want to get the scholarship. I didn't put too much hope on this scholarship but I take it as precious experience and hope I will get it. Amin.

November 2009

Wow.. Time passed so fast and it is the end of October. Just in two month, it will be 2010 and I am getting older. Before this, I used to write short notes but now, going to write blog.. Hmm.. This is sort of my plan for this November.. I want to but new bag for me because the old one was lame.. Just want to buy the new one because I want to. UITM's result for admission will come out in the first week of November and I am hoping, really hoping that I will enter in UITM this year. Then, there will be two movies that I am waiting for this year. They are '2012' and 'New Moon'. Yeah, I am so excited about these movies and perhaps, I am going to watch it alone. Not because I dont have friends but I prefer to watch it by myself. Just like Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince. I want to watch it again.. Maybe this month will be the last month for me to work at TopUp because I really want to quit from it.Maybe I'm looking for job that will pay me more. I need more money because I want to keep it for myself. Ya, you know something like emergency. About music, can't wait to listen to Adam Lambert and Kris Allen songs. Ya, I am a big fan of American Idol.. But, I hate the Adam Lambert's cover album because that picture supposed to be in America's Next Top Model. But, it's okay because I just want to listen to his songs, not his album cover. So, it's only from me and at least, I have something update from this blogspot. See you again.. (I dont know if there will be anyone who read this stupid blog)

they are leaving..

this time i am alone..

left here.. stay alone and have no one with me..

starting to appreciate things that missing..

hoping that they will come back here..

feel so lonely without them..

what I can do is counting the days till they come here..

--JUST WAITING--

i'm saying this..

don't pretend like you care about me..

don't pretend like you know about me..

why only just today you learn what is F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P..

why only today??

just leave me if that you want..

when you come here, you didn't tell me

but, when you're leaving, you're looking for me..

to spend time with..

why only just the day you are leaving??

tell me why..