i'm saying this..

don't pretend like you care about me..

don't pretend like you know about me..

why only just today you learn what is F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P..

why only today??

just leave me if that you want..

when you come here, you didn't tell me

but, when you're leaving, you're looking for me..

to spend time with..

why only just the day you are leaving??

tell me why..

updating my BLOG..

It's been a while I didn't write here.. Miss to write here about my boring life..

Right now, listening to know your enemy and really enjoy that song.. and it has became one of my most favourite song.. listen to Greenday really reminds me to sumone.. Azlan.. hear from friend that he is in NAVY now.. Good, hope he will enjoy his work..

Trying to work out my blogspot layout but don't know how to do it.. I don't care actually since black is one of my feveret colour.. Rosly, stop saying nonsense here..

Currently, I'm working.. Just as a salesboy.. Low class job but really enjoy it becoz met friends and have chit-chat with them.. talk about their life.. Really enjoyed it becoz finally, have friend to talked with.. All my friends have precede their study and busy with their task and life.. and I'm still here.. :((

Sometimes, feel so boring becoz there's nothing to do.. So, taking my own pics and my friends.. trying specs, bow tie, and many more.. Enjoy this pics..

I'm trying specs.. wanna buy it but someone already bought it.. Haha..

Me with my friends.. actually we are five but she is not in this pic.. wearing mask for prevention of H1N1 but we do only wear this when there were many customers.. me, Baby, Quya and Julia..

This is what we have to wear everyday.. we only have to wear plain black and white t-shirt only.. so sad because before this, I'm wearing my colourful t-shirt.. :(

One of my feveret t-shirt that sold at the place I'm working.. It's so funny.. Hehe..

OK. Before I leave, just want to say Happy Ramadan to all my friends.. C U later.. Bye~

April 1, 2009..

Ya, tomorrow will be the first day for August. Why with the date? Actually, nothing. Just want to inform all of my buddies that I'll be working again. Just like last year. After I didn't place myself into any local universities, took decision to work. Of course I have to working. If not, what else? Stuck in home? No way.. I will die due to boringness.. Because at home, I have nothing to do because I'm not in the mood to help anyone and I like to just eat, sleep and watch TV. That's my bad habits.. never mind because I'll start working tomorrow but only for temporarily. I will work only start from August 1, 2009 til September 22, 2009. Yeah, I know it's a short time but I only work as part time. If they feel want to take me to work permanent, I'll just accept it.. Because working is the only way I can forget my problem. Yesterday, I was very depressed. I've never been like this and there's something that stuck in my mind. Ya, further study. I was so upset till I decided want to study in college. I'm so emotional. Finally, I took a break with sleep and eat. After that, I decided again I want to work first to earn extra money for me and try again next year. Actually, I'm planning to apply for the second semester intake in any university. I think it's the only one reason that stopped me from taking college. Ya, I can wait for another five months. Ahhh.. Actually I don't but I have to be patience. Ohh.. To my firends, if you know anything about second intake in your university, please let me know ya? Because I'll don't have time to surfing the net since I have to work and go back to my home at Tanjung Batu.. I hope I have phone with me but my phone is broken, so it's hard for me to call and sms my friends.. But, I will but new one if I have money from my salary. Ok. That's all about me and hope you'll enjoy your very first day of August. See you then.

MUET result..

Finally, I got my MUET result and I'm so satisfied with the band 3 because I really have tried my best on that day. Although there are few papers that I'm not satisfied with. Before this, in matric I scored about 12/45 in my listening paper and it became worst because I only have 9/45. I am okey with it because I really can't hear anything what the speaker talked about although I have tried my best to listen it. Next, my speaking paper. I'm so mad about my speaking paper because actually, I thought that I can score about 25 and above because in matric, I have 22/45. Unfortunately, I only have 15/45. It's the most dissapointed for me because I didn't know what's wrong with my speaking on that day. Plus, reading comprehension. Just Ok. 75/125. About the last paper, writing. I satisfied with this mark because really, I can't believe that I scored 70/90. Finallly, sum up the marks and I got Band3 with total sum of 169. Just regret it because I didn't do well in my listening and speaking papers. I only have 11 marks for me to score for band4. It's so closed and I'm pretty sure that I can score Band4 if I do well in my speaking paper. Ahh.. Can't regret it anymore because it's past time. Just leave it..

Menggapai Bintang

Last Night, I just finished reading a book about the experience of our first Malaysia Astronaut. He is Datuk Dr. Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor. Before this, I used to hate him so much and the reason, I don’t know why. I really don’t care about his journey to the space. Beside that, I think government really waste money spending million ringgits just to send an astronaut and achieved dream to have the first one astronaut in Malaysia.

However, I started change my mind when I found this book ‘Menggapai Bintang’ written by Sheikh Mustapha Shukor Al-Masrie. When I read this book, I really changed my first impression to Datuk Dr. Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor a.k.a. Amus. Before this, I don’t know anything about his life and what he has to face to achieve his dream. So, reading this book really changed my mind at all and I’m sorry for not to support him. I shouldn’t do this and I regret it. Finally, I finished this book and I’m kind of sad because there are happy and sad moments in this book. I still remember this date and will remember it for entire of my life because it’s a history for Malaysia. We are so proud with achievement of Amus.

On 10th October 2007, it was the most amazing moment for Malaysia Nation because just in few minutes, Amus is going to the space and invent history with becomes the first Malaysia Astronaut. Ten days after the launch of the rocket that brought Amus to the space, Sheikh Mustapha Shukor Al-Masrie a.k.a. Ajil fell off and was sent to the hospital. Unfortunately, the accident was too serious and he was coma. It was so sad because actually, the one who write this book is Ajil. Ajil also the closest person to Amus and always support Amus all the time to become an astronaut. All his siblings cared for him and pray day and night.

But, what the doctor said they need miracle to happen. However, his brother didn’t believe it and he said that Ajil was strong and he can wake up from coma. Unfortunately, he failed to wake up from coma and died. It was so sad because the person that wrote and dedicated this book to Amus doesn’t have the chance to see Amus arrived safely. On the same day, someone arrived but someone leave. It’s our god plan and they know that there must be something benefit from its. I felt sad for their parents because on the same day, they received two different reactions from people. They said congratulation for Amus but sorry for Ajil. It’s so sad. What made this story sadder is Amus arrived only after four hours after Ajil is buried. Amus don’t have the chance to see Ajil for the last time. However, what did Ajil left for Amus is a book ‘Menggapai Bintang’.

Here’s a quote from Amus to Ajil.
‘Kamulah peminatku yang nombor satu. Kamu sentiasa percaya kepada kebolehanku. Perjalanan ke angkasa merupakan satu penghormatan buatmu, Ajil.'

so, I want to say congratulation to Amus for made this dream for Malaysia. You're our hero. and al-fatihah for Ajil.

what will happen to me next?

Hmm~ I always asked myself this question. What will happen to me next? Because I have no idea what my future life looks alike. OK. I'm going to tell you all about my life.

1st, I have applied for UPU to enter the University. Unfortunately, I didn't make it and I applied again for the UPU appeal. However, I'm pretty sure that I will not success on UPU appeal because I'm still using my LPM number, not my ID card number. So, it's really waste my chance.

2nd, I just received my letter from Asia Pasific Flight Training and offered to be a pilot. However, it was not so easy because the fees, about rm240 000 and my family told me that I can buy a bungalow with that money. It was ridiculous too. Anyway, my friend told me that I can apply for MARA's scholarship to pay my fee. But, I went to Mara's Building and she said MARA didn't have what I want. So, I checked the MARA's website but I can't find it anywhere. Also googled it, but can't find it. Hmm~ I don't have still worry about this because I will find it again and again. Being a pilot, I can fly anywhere. Hehe..

3rd, my BFF kin told me that I should send e-mail to the vice chancellor of the uni that I want to enter. Thumbs up for Shikin because she really helps me so much. So, I just sent the e-mail and wait for the best.

4th, bad scenario~ I didn't enter university this year. Maybe I should enter university next year and I can find job so that I can earn money to prepare myself in financial. But, I still don't know if I still want to study if I am 22 years old. We will just wait and see.

5th, I will enter UMS this year with my uncle help with choosing chemical engineering as my course. however, I don't want chemical engineering just because many universities in Malaysia offer this course. So, we have to compete and the best one will win this battle. Beside that, my ex-tutorial, Ronald told me about the situation in UMS. I told him to tell me about the good one if I were in UMS but, guess what? He told me about the negative one. Haha~ Ronald.. Based on his explanation, UMS will be my last choice. I can't believe that we have to share one dorm with six persons. Hmm~ I hope there will be two persons only in a room because it's the best.

So, I will just wait what happen to me next. We will wait and see.

It's been a while..

Yeah, I know that it's been a while since my last post here. That's because I went back to my parents' home and now finally, I'm here again in my aunt's home. And I'm going to tell you guys anything that happen to me for almost one month. I found it's interesting to read my friends' blogs like C-Kin, GWen and Jen. Ya, they wrote a lot in their blog.

First, I just have my letter from Asia Pasific Flight Training and offer me a place at there. At first, I just fill up the form because it was easy because we can apply online because Alif told me before this, they have to apply manually. When I opened the letter, and I have a bit shocked to see the feed that I have to pay for two-years programme. Wow. Almost Rm240 000. I know that I can't afford it and I just gave up on it. But, Alif told me that I can apply for Mara scholarship to pay the fees. I will just give it a try.

Then, when I opened my e-mail a few days ago, I just got an e-mail from ASTRO company asks me to attend an interview which will be held at Bukit Jalil. At first, I was so happy because Astro give me a chance to precede my study to overseas. Actually, I have applied to study in University of Manchester when I fill up the form and I don't have idea where else university I choose in overseas. But, I don't think that I will pass the interview so, I think I will just left it behind. What a wasteful chance. Actually, I'm afraid if I will only waste my parents' money and fail the interview. Wah, it's all about the money. The interview will be held this 23 Jun and I still don't know that if I will go or not. Just wait.

Then, about the UPU result. Haha.. Just like what I have expected. I didn't make it again this year. So, I am applying again for the 'rayuan'. Even after applying it, I know that I won't make it.

Then, what I have waiting for almost six years finally come to me. I just checked JPN website last night, and mycard is here waiting for me. I'm going to take it this Monday and i feel a bit excited about this. Bha, have to go now and I hope luck will be on my side.