what is the story behind all of these?

I have no idea what I am doing.

So, here I am - everyday questioning myself about what I am doing here. everyday.

Just got sick of it already.

Once I got another chance, I will let go myself.

I don't deserved this.

I love to study. I love to learn. I love new stuff.

But I dont get it. Even I asked.

Waiting here, for the time being.

Looking for another opportunities.

Please do come now. I want you.

not ready yet to let it go..

this is what I supposed to post few months ago but all I can say, I am ready to let you go and move on.

yes, it might be hard but still, I need to get it over. Thanks.

Awak, jaga diri baik2 tau! =)

ikhlas

pernah tak tolong orang tapi tak ikhlas? mesti pernah kan?

pernah tak tolong orang sbb dia bnyak tolong kita dulu2?

this is what I want to talk. there once a time, I helped a friend of mine - because he helps me a lot in the past time. Suddenly, he revealed that, he was not that sincere when helped me. I dont know whether it is for real or what but I told him, I dont care.

I really dont care. For what it counts, you have helped me. Psal ikhlas tak ikhlas, itu semua urusan pahala. Rugilah ko tolong orang tapi x ikhlas, sbb you wont get extra pahala for it. Just my two cents for this sunday.

So, be sincere when you helped people. sapa taknak pahala free kan?

long time no see..

I dont even know what is my last post is all about.

so, what to update? It is almost six months by the time I left UTP and worked as an engineer in Yokogawa. The thing is, I dont know what to say because it is not that I want to complaint that much. I just want to share my opinion about what I have done for six months. So, basially I was assigned under Business Solutions department in Yokogawa Kontrol Malaysia as Solutions Engineer. So far, I have dealt with software and hardware that is used in control and instrumentation for oil and gas company. I supposedly to learn a lot from here but unfortunately, I do kind of wasted my time here. Also, I wished to learn more of what I love - Process Plant.

I know that I should not be choosy in what I want to do with my life, it is just I don't want to waste another six months of my life. I have decided that I have to started apply and looking for another opportunities. It is not that Yokogawa is not a good company - it is a good company for you to learn and gain some experience about control and intsrumentation, and dcs system but it is just that I do learn not that much during my work here. So, I have made my decision.

Next thing, I just want to share about my medical check-up. Yes, I am required to do medical check up because my boss just assigned me and rafiq an offshore project in Batam. So, I did passed all the tests except the hearing. and the doc don't want to release the letter unless I went to specialist to check the condition of my ears. So, I went to Hospital Putraaya the next day and did audiogram test. It is a test where the played beep sound with varieties of freuqency, high and low, and press the button everytime I hear any sound. I thought I only have problem with my left ear, and after the results come out - both of my ears are not in good condition. Also, my left ear is just worse. Thus, I have another appointment which I might have to wear hearing aid and cost me 2k. hahahahaaa. and alhamdulillah, passed my med check-up and next is bosiet training.

so, another achievement for today - updating my blog. yay! and salam ramadhan to all of you =)

break

it is just break my heart :(

it is new year and I sleep with sad beginning of the day. the songs that I kept playing reminds me of you. every time.

good night.

another two weeks!

it's been a long long long time I wrote in my blog. Lets me update few things and as the title per se, it is obviously that I have another two weeks to go. Alhamdulillah, gonna be unofficially graduated from my beloved UTP.

I start my first year in UTP in Jan 2010, it is a relieve and bless to be able to study here in UTP. Also, to meet new friends and new exciting environments. It is the best what I have in my life so far and I keep saying that UTP is the best thing ever happen to me. Thanks for everything, the journey, the life and the memories.

Just this week, it's been the hectic week for me - as the final year final semester students and we nailed it! done with my viva presentation for my final year project on the last monday and yesterday, I survived another day just for the presentation of plant design 2 which the preparation were done very very last minute. But somehow, we did it :)

Thinking about the time I have left in UTP, two weeks. yup, it is two weeks. After another four years! What to do since this might be the last time ever before the convo? Of course to spend the time with my buddies and besties. Next week, there will be another chemy dinner for Jan 09 which is us, and am looking forward for the memories. Lets enjoy every single moment that we had together.

What will I miss the most? It is hard to answer because I love everything. Of course I will miss my friends, who I used to hang out together, to spent the time and I don't know when will we have time like this to spent together. It is just what I had in my mind, everyone is going to separate and choose for their path way, their own life but it doesn't mean that we can't meet. We can, but we will try. Maybe a vacation to overseas just for us? We will see since it is very hard to predict the future.

It is already week 14, I guess the last week before the study and exam week. My paper is scheduled on Sat and Sun which will be my last two papers ever in UTP. Yup, my last one ever. Lets score for both paper and have some fun. But before that, of course I still have two projects, two tests and two reports to submitted before the end of week 14. So, that's it. Things are finally getting real. It will be another turning point in my life. Be ready for the future because thing won't be the same as I used to get and go through for four years. 2014 and so on, it is a new year, new life and new environment for everyone. Really looking forward the future.

Why? I want to see whom am I as a working person? Not a student anymore. So, life. work. what it would be like? working for monday to friday. 8.30am til 5pm. How it would be like? How is the environment at the work place? How is the people? How is the job? Everything, I want to know and to tell you the truth, I am scary yet excited to know what is waiting for me in the future. the life. the people. the environment. and everything.

Of course, next year - the responsibility is heavier. Thinking of everything that I have promised to my mom, father, sis and my family. Family to consider and take into account for any decision that I will be make. and of course, getting married is always what I thought. Not really always but it is the reality. Everyone is getting married soon, it is just a matter of time. So, lets put my family ahead first. They come first. I can wait. Yes, she can wait, Yes, we can wait.

so, that's it. everything I want to tell - yay! countdown to 14 days to begin with - unofficially graduating!

kau aku berbeza, i drive u baca peta.

how to make sure she/he is the one that you are looking for?

Istikharah. Doalah kalau baik utkku dekatkanlah ia, kalau buruk jauhkanlah ia